Verse 1 I am standing in the hallway again, too small for the world, too big for what I have to carry. The wallpaper is the same, the smell, too. Nothing has changed. Only now I know what it all was. I see my mother sitting on the floor, tears on her hands, her gaze fixed somewhere far behind me. She is there and yet out of reach. Verse 2 I kneel beside her, say her name. Softly at first. Then louder. I want to touch her, hold her, tell her that everything will be okay. But my hand passes right through her. Like smoke. Like a memory that no longer has any weight. I scream. She doesn't hear me. She keeps crying. Alone. Chorus I am a child again and yet no longer one. I see everything, but I can change nothing. I am there and yet invisible. My voice dissolves in the room, and no one turns around. Verse 3 The scene shifts. Now my father is there. I watch him acting, whispering, placing money into strangers' hands. I stand right there. Too close. Too real. I see myself. Small. Quiet. With eyes that already know too much. I want to grab that child, pull her away, run. But my arms grasp at empty air. Verse 4 I scream my name, as loud as I can. I scream his. I scream hers. I scream everything I couldn't say back then. But the world moves on. The scene plays out. Unmoved. As if my pain were merely background noise that could be turned off. Chorus I stand right in the center of myself and cannot get inside. I watch my life unfold and cannot stop it. I am there, but no one sees me. I scream, but the past is deaf. Bridge I want to be the child who gets saved. Just once. Only once. But no one comes. Not me. Not her. Not him. The air grows heavy. The colors fade. The voices distort. Everything recedes. Chorus I scream one last time, without words, without a voice. Only pain. Only this knowledge that I truly lived through it all. Then the scene collapses. Like a film burning up. Outro Everything turns black. No sound. No echo. Only silence. And I am left behind with a childhood that no one heard. (I am home again) mhm
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