[Intro] Only if they knew [Verse 1] [male lead vocals, intimate] The battles I never posted The tears I never showed The prayers whispered through trembling lips The nights I almost let go Hmm [Chorus] Only if they knew the nights I surrendered To exhausted to carry what I remembered Only if they knew I was losing the war Still showing up while my soul hit the floor Crying in silence, drowning in fear Praying for healing, wondering if heaven could hear Hospital rooms, tears on my face Begging God not to let darkness take my place I slept on the floor, searching for peace Fasting and praying asking the torment to cease Scriptures open, heart full of scars Trying to find God while trapped behind bars Only if they knew [choir enters with harmony] How many times I almost gave up Only if they knew How close I came to not waking up Only if they knew The storms I survived in the Lord The nights I cried to God when nobody called my phone Only if they knew how hard I fought to stay alive Only if they knew How many times God helped me survive [Verse 2] People sat at my table and turned me into a story Spread assumptions while stealing my glory Never asked if I was alright Never knocked on my door while I was sinking beneath waves They couldn't see anymore Everybody needed me when their world fell apart But when I needed a shoulder they disappeared from the start Closed their hands, closed their eyes Left me wrestling demons while believing their lies There were holes in the walls from battles nobody saw There were tears on the floor while I cried out to God There were nights I wanted silence forever and a day But mercy walked into my darkness and refused to walk away [Bridge] I should have been buried I should have been gone I should have been six feet deep Yet somehow I'm still standing strong [Chorus 2] Only if they knew How close I came to the grave Only if they knew How many times God made a way Only The strength it took to breathe When all I wanted was release Now my scars became my testimony My tears became my song And the same God who kept me then Is the reason I'm still holding on [Outro] Only if they knew The pain, the prayers, the warfare Only if they knew Only if they knew How close I came They'd understand why I praise God the way I do
