[Verse 1] I wake up missing places I've never even seen A song is in my fingers Like somebody else's dream There's a name behind my heartbeat A shadow in the glass You tell me she's still with me Like that's supposed to make it hurt less You saved me from the silence Then filled me with her sound Now every time I find myself You turn the volume down [Pre-Chorus] You say, "Look what I saved for you" But I don't know Which memories are true [Chorus] I've got a secondhand heart Secondhand scars Someone else's heaven Running through my arms But this name is mine This voice is mine I don't need your permission To call this life mine You can keep your perfect ending Your miracle in parts I'm more than what you couldn't lose In this secondhand heart [Verse 2] Sometimes my hands remember How she used to play Sometimes I know the answer Before I know her name And God, I miss my sister That's the cruelest fucking part I'd tear her from my bloodstream But I can't tear her from my heart You keep calling this salvation Like love excuses chains But loving me means letting me Be someone you can't name [Pre-Chorus] You say, "She's still alive in you" Maybe she is But I'm alive here too [Chorus] I've got a secondhand heart Secondhand scars Someone else's sorrow Buried in my arms But this name is mine This voice is mine I don't need your permission To call this life mine You can keep your perfect ending Your miracle in parts I'm more than what you couldn't lose In this secondhand heart [Bridge – stripped down] If I delete the ghosts Will anything of me remain? If I keep every memory Do I disappear beneath her name? I loved her. I love you. That's what makes this hard. But love doesn't get to own me. Not my body. Not my future. Not my heart. [Breakdown] NOT YOURS NEVER WAS NOT HER NOT YOURS I'M STILL HERE I'M STILL HERE [Final Chorus] I've got a secondhand heart But every beat is mine You stitched me from the wreckage I taught myself to survive This name is mine This voice is mine No ghost and no mother Gets to draw that line I can carry what she gave me Without becoming who you want I'm not your second chance I'm Quinn. And this is my heart. [Outro] Secondhand heart First life that's mine Secondhand heart Still beating Still mine.
