I keep a garden in my head But something’s poisoning the roots Every thought I try to tend Comes back wearing different wounds I talk to ghosts that wear my face They say I’m soft, I say I break They say adapt, I hesitate… I feel too much to rearrange You don’t hear it That hum beneath my skin Like wires crossing Everywhere I’ve been I’m not broken… I just don’t fit the frame You call it normal I call it numbing pain I don’t wanna shut it off Even when it hurts to breathe I’d rather drown inside the flood Than fake the way you want from me You can’t flatten what I feel You can’t silence what it means I’m a storm that won’t stay still… I bloom inside the static scream I analyze every word I say Replay it back like a razor blade Cutting deeper with every take Till I don’t recognize my own face I don’t rage, I implode instead Build a world then I burn the thread You see quiet, I see dread Every “I’m fine” is misread I don’t belong in your clean design Too many colors in one damn mind You see chaos, I see signs Something real in the fault lines DON’T TELL ME HOW TO FEEL RIGHT WHEN YOU’VE NEVER FELT THIS DEEP DON’T ASK ME WHY I’M LIKE THIS WHEN YOU’RE ASLEEP INSIDE YOUR PEACE I’D RATHER BLEED SOMETHING HONEST THAN LIVE NUMB AND DISAPPEAR IF THIS IS WHAT IT COSTS TO CARE THEN LEAVE ME ROTTING HERE… Then leave me rotting here I don’t wanna shut it off Even when it hurts to breathe I’d rather drown inside the flood Than fake the way you want from me You can’t flatten what I feel You can’t silence what it means I’m a storm that won’t stay still… I bloom inside the static scream I keep a garden in my heart But something’s poisoning the roots Every feeling I try to tend Comes back wearing different wounds I’m not broken… I just don’t fit in You call it normal I call it numbing pain I don’t wanna shut it off Even when it tears me thin This is more than just a flaw It’s the place I’m living in You can’t flatten what I feel You can’t make me incomplete I’m the ache that won’t be healed… I bloom inside the static scream I BLOOM INSIDE THE STATIC SCREAM!
