why was i made...  (The Problems of More, Vol. 2) 《Disco Brimstone》

[INTRO] [lap steel over dark synths, slow arena build] [808 heartbeat, orchestral swell] [deep-pitch gravelly vocals echo in] I thought the next thing would fix me I thought the bright lights would stick I thought a little more heaven Would make me less sick But every door I kick open Just shows me another locked door I keep getting what I wanted And I still want more [VERSE 1] I wanted money, got enough to make the silence louder Wanted love, got close, then I started to doubt her Wanted peace, but peace felt cheap in my hands Like a pretty little postcard from a place I can’t stand I been running on fumes with a full-tank goin' wild Shaking hands with ghosts in the backstage aisle Everybody says, “Man, you made it somehow” But I’m staring through the moment like, “What about now?” I got applause in my ears and a hole in my chest A head full of static in a king-size bed I laugh too hard, then I don’t talk at all I’m a sold-out show in an empty hall And maybe that’s the part I never learned to say I don’t want escape, I want a reason to stay Something real enough to scare me clean Something bigger than the hunger eating me [PRE-CHORUS] I can hear my shadow talking when the room gets low Saying, “You already know, you already know” Every high comes down, every crown gets worn But I was born with a storm wanting something more [CHORUS] I’m still hungry Still reaching Still standing in the fire trying to find what I believe in Still restless Still torn Still waking up alive and asking, “What was I made for?” I don’t need another night that disappears by morning I don’t need another dream that dies without a warning I keep touching the sky But I’m stuck on the floor I got everything I wanted And I still want more [VERSE 2] I don’t mean more gold, more noise, more names More rooms full of strangers screamin' out my pain I don’t mean more smoke, more pills, more dreams More temporary angels getting paid to leave I mean the thing underneath all the things I chase The part of myself I can almost face The reason I keep driving past the edge of town With the radio loud and the windows down Past a church for the dead with all the lights blown-out While my inner-child's screamin',please just let me out There’s a demon at the door with my voice and my grin Saying, “You’ll never feel full, now let me back in” I say, “Not tonight,” then floor my fuckin' Ford Through a dark future I can’t afford Red dirt, black sky, neon rain Singing to myself so I don’t go insane I want a love that doesn’t feel like debt I want a life I don’t have to regret I want a quiet that doesn’t feel like war I want less of this ache But I still want more [PRE-CHORUS] I can hear my shadow talking when the room gets low Saying, “You already know, you already know” Every high comes down, every crown gets worn But I was born with a storm wanting something more [CHORUS] I’m still hungry Still reaching Still standing in the fire trying to find what I believe in Still restless Still torn Still waking up alive and asking, “What was I made for?” I don’t need another night that disappears by morning I don’t need another dream that dies without a warning I keep touching the sky But I’m stuck on the floor I got everything I wanted And I still want more [BRIDGE] Maybe more is not a number Maybe more is not a prize Maybe more is just the courage To look myself straight in the eyes Maybe I don’t need a kingdom Maybe I don’t need a sign Maybe I just need one moment That finally feels like mine But my blood keeps rushing And the drums kick in And the sky starts splitting Underneath my skin So I pray, then I laugh Then I break, then I soar I don’t know if it saves me But I still want more [FINAL CHORUS] I’m still hungry Still reaching Still standing in the fire trying to find what I believe in Still restless Still torn Still waking up alive and asking, “What was I made for?” I don’t need another night that disappears by morning I don’t need another dream that dies without a warning I keep touching the sky But I’m stuck on the floor I got everything I wanted And I still want more Still hungry Still bleeding Still chasing down a feeling that can finally give me meaning Still broken Still yours Still praying there is something on the other side of more [OUTRO] [lap steel fades into synth static] [orchestra drops to a heartbeat] I thought the next thing would fix me I thought the bright lights would stick But I got everything I wanted And I’m still hungry... [FINALE] "....Yeah...Ain’t that a bitch..." [END]