After a long struggle

[Dramatic Intro] [Verse 1] (Calm yet exhilarating vocals) Everything feels meaningless That thought won't leave my head I want to disappear right now Without a trace, leaving nothing behind Despair is too mild a word to describe my current situation [Pre-Chorus 1] (Building excitement) I wanted to be born normal The fact that I'm even thinking like that Mean I'm not normal No medicine will work [Chorus] (Explosive chorus, melodic and shouting vocals) Meeting you is my only light There's no way I could resent you You always surround me with warm words I would sacrifice everything to protect that smile It's always like this [Verse 2] (Calm yet exhilarating vocals) Catastrophizing is troublesome Can I change it with my own will I can't even think about changing it I can't muster the courage to take action I wasn't this kind of person [Pre-Chorus 2] (Building excitement) I wanted to be born normal Can you understand that wish Just a slight misalignment of gears In this world where we lose everything does it even have any value [Chorus] (Explosive chorus, melodic and shouting vocals) Meeting you was my only light I'm nothing but grateful to you If these feelings reach you, I'll be saved To protect that smile I'll become a diablo that destroys everything It's always like this [Bridge] (Tempo changes, a slightly emotional part) I won't think about anything now I'll just rest slowly Someone says that's the right thing to do [Outro] Let's entrust ourselves to someone else's thoughts for once Isn't it okay to seek healing I'll gently close my eyes and drown out the noise I'll cling to hope after I fall asleep I believe... I don't know what it is, though Goodnight, beautiful and damn world