[Verse 1] I keep saying when, I keep saying someday Like someday's a place I might actually reach I've spent years moving goalposts into the distance Making promises time doesn't have to keep Maybe next spring, maybe next city Maybe someone stays, maybe something gives I've gotten good at inventing tomorrows Just to make it through the one I'm in [Pre-Chorus] And I know what the evidence says I've been collecting it for years Still there's something stupid in me That refuses to disappear [Chorus] I don't want to die I just don't want to live like this If this is all there is Then I don't know what I'm staying for But what if I leave too early? What if something changes after all? I've got no reason left to hope But I can't make myself let go Not yet Not yet [Verse 2] I've had moments that almost convinced me A different life was somewhere close A hand in mine, a strange city's morning A few good days I wanted most Then everything settles back into pattern The same four walls, the same old ache But now I know what wanting feels like And that's a crueler thing to take [Pre-Chorus] Every year I move the finish line Every year I swear it's the last Then some tiny possibility Keeps dragging me into the next [Chorus] I don't want to die I just don't want to live like this If this is all there is Then I don't know what I'm staying for But what if I leave too early? What if something changes after all? I've got no reason left to hope But I can't make myself let go Not yet Not yet [Bridge] What if forty finds me laughing At how certain I had been? What if there's a kitchen somewhere I haven't stood barefoot in? What if someone knows my footsteps? What if I start wanting days? What if all these empty years are Just the ones before things change? But what if they're not? What if this is it? How many years can you live on "maybe" Before "maybe" makes you sick? [Breakdown] I don't need a sign I don't need a reason God knows I've stopped asking for proof Just one more night Just one more season Just one more chance to find out the truth [Final Chorus] I don't want to die I just want a life I haven't lived Something more than getting through Something I would hate to miss And maybe nothing's waiting Maybe nothing changes after all I've got no reason left to hope But I can't make myself let go So I'll stay Not because I know Not because I trust tomorrow Not because the evidence says so I'll stay Because I still need to know [Outro] Maybe next spring Maybe next city Maybe someone stays Maybe something gives Not yet.
