[Verse 1] I learned that good people stay When every instinct says to run. They carry weight without complaining, Put themselves behind everyone. So I became dependable, The one who always understands, While every dream I postponed Slowly slipped between my hands. [Pre-Chorus] If kindness costs me everything, At what point is it just fear? If everybody needs me, Am I allowed to disappear? [Chorus] I want to be happy, I want to be good. I wish those roads crossed As often as they should. Because choosing myself Feels like leaving someone behind, And doing the right thing Keeps stealing pieces of my life. Tell me, can a good heart Sometimes say, “I’ve had enough”? Can I choose what makes me happy Without betraying everyone I love? [Verse 2] I know duty has a beauty. I know promises should mean things. But a promise made from guilt Can quietly become a chain. [Bridge] Maybe goodness isn't suffering. Maybe love isn't self-erasure. Maybe giving from an empty heart Doesn't make the giving greater. [Final Chorus] I want to be happy. I still want to be good. Maybe I can choose myself More often than I thought I could. If loving everyone requires That I hate the life I live, Maybe being good means learning I deserve some joy to give. 2. The Selfish Road [Verse 1] There's a road I want to follow That will disappoint a few. Every mile looks like freedom, Every mile feels cruel to you. I could stay where I'm expected, Keep the picture clean and whole, But every day I play that person Something disappears inside my soul. [Chorus] Is it selfish if I'm happy? Is it noble if I break? How much misery is righteous? How much joy am I allowed to take? I don't want to hurt you. I don't want to lose myself. Why does doing what I need Feel like choosing me above everyone else? [Verse 2] You can sacrifice so beautifully That nobody sees you drown. They'll call you strong and loyal While your whole world closes down. And selfishness can wear disguises. Freedom isn't always kind. Sometimes chasing your own happiness Leaves somebody else's heart behind. [Bridge] So I can't hide behind slogans: “Follow dreams” or “do what's right.” Every choice creates a shadow. Every yes extinguishes some light. I just want enough courage To accept whatever choosing costs, Without pretending that my happiness Means nobody else gets lost. [Final Chorus] Maybe selfish isn't evil. Maybe sacrifice isn't good. Maybe character is choosing With the clearest heart you could. I will try to cause less sorrow. I will own the wounds I make. But I can't spend my only lifetime Living choices I can't take. 3. Saint With an Empty Cup [Verse 1] I became the one who listens, The one everybody calls. I learned to catch their pieces Before they hit the floor. I said yes before they asked me. I forgave before they knew. It felt good to be important, To be someone people turned to. [Pre-Chorus] But saints with empty cups Still get thirsty in the end. And being needed isn't always The same as having friends. [Chorus] How good do I have to be Before I'm allowed some happiness? How much of me belongs to others Before there's nothing of me left? I can save another evening. I can swallow one more need. But if kindness grows from misery, What kind of kindness can that be? [Verse 2] Maybe part of my devotion Wasn't virtue after all. Maybe I liked being the hero, Being necessary to them all. That's the cruelest contradiction: My sacrifice fed my pride. I could call myself selfless While avoiding my own life. [Bridge] So I'm learning different goodness, One that lets me draw a line. One where I can still be loving Without donating all my time. [Final Chorus] I don't need to be a martyr To prove there's kindness in my blood. I can help without surrender. I can leave when it's too much. Maybe happiness and goodness Aren't enemies at heart. Maybe both require the courage To know where I end and others start. 4. If I Choose the Sun [Verse 1] There's sunlight through the doorway. There's a life outside this room. But someone that I care for Needs me standing in the gloom. If I leave, I might be happy. If I stay, they won't be alone. And no philosophy can tell me Which direction leads me home. [Chorus] If I choose the sun, Who freezes in my shadow? If I choose to stay, How much of myself will go? Every happy ending Seems to charge somebody pain. I keep searching for an answer Where nobody loses anything. But life doesn't work that way. Every road refuses some. So tell me how to still be good If I decide to choose the sun. [Verse 2] I envy simple stories Where the righteous choice is clear. Where sacrifice feels beautiful And love defeats the fear. Real life is made of tradeoffs, Of competing kinds of care. Sometimes being there for someone Means you cannot be elsewhere. [Bridge] Maybe morality is messy Because people matter too. Not just strangers, not just family, Not just them and not just you. And I am also someone Whose happiness has weight. I can't remove
