[Verse 1] I can go days without thinking of you Weeks where your name doesn't cross my mind I can tell the story without getting angry I can even say we had our time Then something small catches me off guard A song, a street, a turn of phrase And suddenly I'm having conversations With someone I haven't talked to in ages [Pre-Chorus] I thought I'd made it through this part How many times can something break the same heart? [Chorus] I don't wanna hate you I don't wanna love you I don't wanna wonder what you're doing tonight I don't wanna miss you Don't wanna forgive you For things I've already forgiven a hundred times I'm tired of making peace Just to lose it again Tired of finding the ending Then going back through where we've been I don't want another chance I don't need another goodbye I just wanna not give a fuck When you cross my mind [Verse 2] Some days I remember all the reasons Walking away was the only thing to do Then grief gets selective with the details And only shows me the best of you So I have to remind myself what happened Like I'm arguing my own damn case Pull every ugly truth out of storage Just to put a memory back in its place [Pre-Chorus] And that's the part that pisses me off I shouldn't have to hurt to remember why I stopped [Chorus] I don't wanna hate you I don't wanna love you I don't wanna wonder what you're doing tonight I don't wanna miss you Don't wanna forgive you For things I've already forgiven a hundred times I'm tired of making peace Just to lose it again Tired of finding the ending Then going back through where we've been I don't want another chance I don't need another goodbye I just wanna not give a fuck When you cross my mind [Bridge] They say it comes in stages Like you finish one, you're through Nobody says acceptance Can wake up missing you Nobody says the anger Can come knocking months too late Or one good memory can make you Question every choice you made Maybe healing isn't linear Maybe that's just how it goes But knowing why it happens Doesn't make me want it anymore [Final Chorus] I don't wanna hate you I don't wanna love you I don't wanna feel a goddamn thing at all I don't wanna miss you Don't wanna resent you Don't wanna brace myself whenever memories call I'm tired of making peace Just to lose it again Tired of getting somewhere Just to wake up where I've been I don't want another chance I don't need another goodbye I just wanna not give a fuck When you cross my mind [Outro] You can be somebody I once loved You can be a part of who I've been I just wish my heart would understand That losing you Doesn't have to happen again
