[Intro] [Industrial boom-bap, 80 BPM, distorted sub-bass, dark carnival organ, cavernous reverb, robotic male chopper rap with bit-crushed distortion] [Low, spoken] From the boneyard, I watch them cling... (Sleepy Bonez) To the thing that eats them alive... (Rattle, rattle) [Endless Verse] [Distorted 808s, industrial snares, metallic percussion, syncopated hi-hat triplets, turntable scratches, eerie choir pads, dark carnival organ swells, continuous flow, no chorus break, endless questions] [Aggressive, clear diction, robotic chopper cadence] Sleepy Bonez, what if the addiction ain't the problem? Sleepy Bonez, what if the addiction is the solution? Sleepy Bonez, what if the substance was the only thing that ever held you? Sleepy Bonez, what if the bottle was the only one that never left you? Sleepy Bonez, what if you learned to reach for the thing Because the hand that should have held you never did? Sleepy Bonez, what if the first time you felt safe Was the first time you were numb? Sleepy Bonez, what if the body keeps the score? Sleepy Bonez, what if the craving is the child? Sleepy Bonez, what if the itch is the infant Still waiting to be rocked, still waiting to be held? Sleepy Bonez, what if you never learned to regulate Because no one ever regulated with you? Sleepy Bonez, what if your nervous system was built In a house where the still face was the norm? Sleepy Bonez, what if the substance is the co-regulator You never got from another human being? Sleepy Bonez, what if the dopamine hit Is the mother you never had? Sleepy Bonez, what if the addiction is a relationship With the only thing that ever showed up? Sleepy Bonez, what if the substance is loyal In a world where everyone else left? Sleepy Bonez, what if the rule was installed That your needs are a burden and your asking is violence? Sleepy Bonez, what if the only way to need Was to need the thing that asks for nothing? Sleepy Bonez, what if the Scarcity Script Taught you that there was never enough love? Sleepy Bonez, what if the only abundance Was the abundance of the high? Sleepy Bonez, what if the Matrix Maxima Mind Told you that you were the problem? Sleepy Bonez, what if the shame was the chain And the substance was the only thing that loosened it? Sleepy Bonez, what if the body was never taught That it was safe to feel? Sleepy Bonez, what if the only way to survive Was to leave the body behind? Sleepy Bonez, what if the addiction is the door You never knew was never locked? Sleepy Bonez, what if the substance is the rest You never got to take? Sleepy Bonez, what if the craving is the grief You were never allowed to feel? Sleepy Bonez, what if the high is the mourning You were never allowed to complete? Sleepy Bonez, what if the addiction is the scapegoat You made of yourself? Sleepy Bonez, what if the substance is the savior You made of the thing that kills you? Sleepy Bonez, what if the spiritual bypass Is just another substance? Sleepy Bonez, what if the prayer is the needle And the church is the pipe? Sleepy Bonez, what if the faith is the fix And the doctrine is the dose? Sleepy Bonez, what if the ritual is the ritual Of avoiding the ghost? Sleepy Bonez, what if you never feared death? Sleepy Bonez, what if you feared the life You were never allowed to live? Sleepy Bonez, what if the addiction is the pause Between the pain and the choice? Sleepy Bonez, what if the body's one word Was always sleep? Sleepy Bonez, what if the substance was the only thing That ever let you weep? Sleepy Bonez, what if the door was never locked? Sleepy Bonez, what if the cage was never real? Sleepy Bonez, what if the addiction is the wound That you were never allowed to heal? Sleepy Bonez, what if the rattle is the first sound And the craving is the echo? Sleepy Bonez, what if the rest is the first right And the high is the debt you owe? Sleepy Bonez, what if you were never broken? Sleepy Bonez, what if you were only tired? Sleepy Bonez, what if the substance was the blanket For a child who was never attired? Sleepy Bonez, what if the addiction is the answer To a question no one ever asked? Sleepy Bonez, what if the substance is the mask For a face that was never unmasked? Sleepy Bonez, what if the only thing you ever controlled Was the thing that controlled you? Sleepy Bonez, what if the only thing you ever chose Was the thing that stole you? Sleepy Bonez, what if the door was never locked? Sleepy Bonez, what if the rest was always there? Sleepy Bonez, what if the child inside you Was always waiting for the care? Sleepy Bonez, I see the child in the addict's eye! Sleepy Bonez, I hear the infant's cry! Sleepy Bonez, I know the door is always near! Sleepy Bonez, and I whisper away the fear! [Outro] [Tempo drops, dark carnival organ fades, ominous synth, whispered female layers, 60 BPM] What if the addiction was never the enemy? What if the addiction was the only friend you had? What if it was only you supporting you? [Silence] [END]
