Copyright L0stKydz, all rights reserved [Verse] Why does it always come back to you? Within these few short days, I’ve succumbed to Words I tried to hide away.. I tried not to complain, out of fear… I trusted you out of blind respect… What I got in return was a knife in my back… You must be twisted inside the head… If you believe, I would open up again… [Chorus] Asking myself, why am I like this? Losing myself, inside of my mind. I’m not sure if you'll understand me. I don’t wish for you to justify what I did. I don’t need your false sense of pity. Or your motherless love... When I needed that love and protection, you stood by him the most... [Verse] I never wanted to say these things to you. But I never wanted to be alone, so I dragged you down. For the whole world to see, the eternal misery you helped conceive... You loved someone who was Violent! While you sat back in the Silence! Your children, are struggling to Survive This! Why were you silent? Do I need to say what I really believe? For you to see? What we both know to be true? It was only a matter of time. You say you love him, but what about the blood in my veins? If love were the same, -why doesn’t it feel that way? If it was the love you say... Why am I? [Chorus] Asking myself, why am I like this? Losing myself, inside of my mind. I’m not sure if you'll understand me. I don’t wish for you to justify what I did. I don’t need your false sense of pity. Or your motherless love... When I needed that love and protection, you stood by him the most. And now that I’m verbal about the things that I want. I shouldn't be silenced for wishing for more... [Verse] I have nothing to lose by being truthful to you. But this is everything that you knew. This isn’t new to you. I cried, was blind, to someone who devised. Such simple lies, inside a child who was chastised for trying to hide… From the man she loved… Perhaps I don’t fully understand what you've done outta love... But was it worth the sacrifice! [Bridge] I shroud myself in violence! Because this is the only way provided to me… So I locked myself inside… I feared what would happen if I stepped outside. But to you it was all a lie… Only a child would ignore your pain? Everything that I’ve seen was it all real? The yelling and screaming, was it all inside my head? Tell me… Mother! [Outro Chorus] Why am I like this? Losing myself, inside of my mind. I don’t need your false sense of pity. Or your motherless love... A part of me wants to say I don't need you! I can feel my heart break when I don't see through, All of the things you said to me... But look at the reason I can't trust you. Look at the man you stand beside... So when I!!! Needed your motherly love! All I got was this feeling of patricide! But. When I needed you the most- You... Stood by him the most… And now that I’m verbal about the things that I want. I shouldn't be silenced for wishing for more...
