Fighting for My Skin

[Slow] [Mournful] [No percussion] [Echoed vocals] [Male vocal] [Verse 1] Burning embers melt this vessel, Slowly burning the whole frame down Every step I take gets heavier, demanding more than I got to give now breaking away fragments of stone from the sacred temple that carries my sweet sou, delicate like a flower, wilted petals on the floor [Bass drop] [chorus] Heavy burdens of my sins, became this cross I carry, Building walls around the demons fighting for my soul then possessing my body leaving me helpless, and weak Destruction of divine beauty consumed by envy and greed Tug hard- Tight grip,- Choke Hold- Claws deep in my skin prisoner of my own sin, cutting with my own blade No chains no slaves no strings no games but right now they got me in a choke hold tight grip choke chain claws deep Im at your command have your way with me [wail] Nothing soft survives this, I wear the weight like armor" this illness is contagious, for anyone too close Some days I fold, clearly I cant deny it Some days I just want relief some days i just cant hide it Truth is, this vice wont loosen its grip and the darkness allways wins Pickin up the pieces that got left behind, if it weren’t for my heart beating, Id have no concept of time, just a loop in my head I keep callin’ my life can’t think, can’t speak, can’t feel, just sink in in to the quicksand, that swallows me whole [Outro] Elevation of my mind, my body, my soul- Still Breathing That’s the only thing I’m chasing, that’s the only thing I know Just to get out from under what keeps dragging me down down down All I really want right now from this life is to be free of the heavy chains I've been dragging crippling me, I just really want to be myself, just really wanna be the girl who laughed, who smiled, she danced ,felt joy, had fun might've even been little bit wild.. Lightning finds a home in me, and I become the storm Thunder roars throughout my body , shockwaves penetrate the floor, shutting my whole frame down Concrete foot steps costs more than I got to give now holding on to faith, is the reason Im still breathing [wail] Nothing soft survives this, I wear the weight like armor Some days I fold, some days I’m one breath from the edge That’s the truth of it, that’s the part I can’t hide kept myself in the darkness, stayed blind to the knife Walked through the fire, and out of the ashes came the purest light [Pre-Hook] Withdraw don't make the process any better, Feel it all, no armor Tryna push through the wreckage But it keeps calling louder [Hook] I’m fighting for my skin I’m clawing my way back in I’m chasing down the edge Just to feel steady in my chest Elevation of the beast within Mind, body, soul — I’m bleeding I’m fighting for my skin This the war inside my skin [Verse 2] Some days I break, I ’m not gon’ lie about it The craving gets loud and I can’t out-fight it But I’m still here, still breathing through the burn Every relapse left a scar I had to learn from Chronic surge don’t care that I’m tryna stay sober It just leans in close and it drags me lower But I keep choosing — even shaking, even weak ’Cause the part of me that survives this still speaks [Bridge] [wail] I’m not weak for wanting relief I’m not weak for what I believe The war’s in my body every day But I’m still here — still finding my way [Hook — reprise, stripped] I’m fighting for my skin I’m clawing my way back in Elevation of the beast within Mind, body, soul — still breathing [Outro] Elevation of my mind, my body, my soul That’s the only thing I’m chasing, that’s the only thing I know Just to get out from under what keeps dragging me Down, down down down All I really want right now from this life is to be free of the heavy chains I've been dragging that crippling me, I just really want to be myself, just really wanna be the girl who laughed, who smiled, she danced ,felt joy, had fun mightve even been little bit wild.. Free of the pain… that’s all I need