[Intro: filtered room tone, dry close vocal] Yeah I came out That's something [Verse 1: low melodic rap, sparse drums] Black tee, clean shoes, Uber through the lights Told myself, “Don’t stay home tonight” Room too loud, bass sitting in my chest Everybody moving like they know what’s next Drink in my hand, ice going clear Whole room packed, but I’m not really here Phone in my pocket, swear I felt it buzz Knew damn well it probably wasn’t us Girl at the bar said, “You look familiar” I smiled back, said, “Maybe I am” She leaned in close, I could’ve played along But my head went somewhere when they changed the song [Pre-Chorus: warmer R&B lift, low harmony] Everybody says, “Forget her, go live” Like one good night makes a dead thing die I can look alright, I can disappear I’m out tonight But I’m not really here [Chorus: sung, wider harmonies, hook forward] I’m out, but I’m not here Whole room loud, you still sound clear Drink in my hand, lights disappear I’m out, but I’m not here I’m out, I’m outside Yeah, I look good, yeah, I’m alright That’s what I tell everybody tonight I’m out But I’m not here [Post-Chorus: stripped, repeatable] Not here Not here Whole room full I disappear Not here Not here I’m out But I’m not here [Verse 2: pocket tightens, 808 fuller] She said she liked the way I wear my chain Asked my name, I almost froze again Not ’cause I forgot it, not ’cause I’m gone Just felt weird giving it to someone new this soon Took another sip, let the bassline work For three whole minutes, I forgot it hurt Then I caught myself laughing, felt almost wrong Like my heart was cheating just by moving on Maybe I don’t want you back Maybe I want what I thought we had Maybe I miss who I was back then Before every silence needed an answer again That hit different So I stayed Didn’t run home when the memory came Let it sit there while the kick drum hit Maybe healing starts looking stupid like this [Pre-Chorus: add harmony, more lift] Everybody says, “Forget her, go live” Maybe they’re wrong, maybe not tonight I don’t feel healed, but I made it here I’m out tonight Even if I’m not all here [Chorus: full groove, stacked low doubles] I’m out, but I’m not here Whole room loud, you still sound clear Drink in my hand, lights disappear I’m out, but I’m not here I’m out, I’m outside Yeah, I look good, yeah, I’m alright That’s what I tell everybody tonight I’m out But I’m not here [Bridge: drums drop, intimate R&B vocal] I don’t wanna go home I don’t wanna stay Funny how every room Feels the same these days But I came anyway Yeah, I came anyway Maybe my body knows What my heart can’t say [Final Chorus: brighter mutation, fuller harmony] I’m out, and I’m still here Whole room loud, but your voice less clear Drink in my hand, lights reappear I’m out And I’m getting there I’m out, I’m outside Don’t need to fake being alright Maybe I just needed one night To find I’m still here [Outro: beat fades, dry vocal] Still here Yeah Not all the way But still here
