[Chorus] I've spent way too long looking up. Wondering if they ever gave a fuck. I've wasted too much energy. And got nowhere with my life. Have you ever felt the bottom? Cause I've fallen for the last time. [Shhadow] Have you ever felt the bottom of a bottle? Seeking after solace but you're left feeling hollow. Wondering if you'll ever see tomorrow. Maybe then you'll make it big but I gotta hit the lotto. I'm drowning in my sorrows with this life that I have borrowed. I've hit the bottom and a jagged path I'm left to follow. Admit defeat? That's a hard pill to swallow. I'm still standing. It won't take much to get me fallin'. But I'm working on it. First step is being honest. On my way up met some people then I found my callin'. I took those hands and as a man it hurt my fuckin' pride. But I'd rather admit defeat than fuckin' die inside. Hundred broken promises when I say I'd try. A smile on my face? It's all a disguise. Because I'm broken, and that shit I tried to hide. The fuck you know about being trapped inside your mind? You'd wanna die, if you stepped inside of mine. And as a man? We were taught not to cry. So I hide, behind all this worthless pride. And in your eyes I'm just that guy that spits some rhymes them toxic lines that cost a life of someone bright someone worthy of a life. I could turn the leaf but all my life I was taught to believe I'd never be worthy. (WORTHY) (And) [Chorus] I've spent way too long looking up. Wondering if they ever gave a fuck. I've wasted too much energy. And got nowhere with my life. Have you ever felt the bottom? Cause I've fallen for the last time. [Dank] I've been fallin' Been hearing rings in my head, but ain't no one callin' I need more face to replace all this hate I've been haulin' My fate won't take the bait, nothin' to embrace, my mental state been feelin' outta place STAGNANT Drama stays attached to my hip, my belt made out of magnets I'd like to remember a better time, but all I can see is fragments I try to ask for help, but all that weak shit got my pride laughin' I'm a has-been Wanna stay in my lane, but my brain doesn't wanna watch others passin' Wish there was a way for people to really give a shit without me askin' Can't eat, can't sleep, my self-worth been steadily fastin' Death isn't my fear when I know I can never outlast it (AAAAHHHHH!) You hear screams, that means my case fell out the basket ....or wagon.... However you wanna see it, best be believin' that i can still make any mothafucka get to golden retrievin' I'm sinkin' If the few around stopped pretendin', my life would feel empty and without meaning I'd go down with this ship, but apart of me just wants to say fuck it and leave em (BYE BITCH) What good is this mutiny when I've become used to the treason? (HEAR ME)
