All Fucking In

[Verse 1] Happy stupid new year Same gray ceiling Same cold bed I pace the hallway like a ghost In a house where I play dead Every picture still arguing Every drawer full of your plans I’m done just watching from the doorway It’s time to use these shaking hands [Pre-Chorus] I’ve been living like a hostage Locked inside my own front room Sleeping with the lights half on Waiting for your key For you [Chorus] I can’t do another year like this I can’t keep begging for a half-way kiss Foot in the doorway Heart on the floor All in or gone I can’t do it anymore It’s us or nothing Say it clear Happy stupid new year [Verse 2] I wake up scared you’re gone again Then remember you never fully stayed Your coffee mug on the counter But your suitcase halfway made I want you back Not borrowed Not in pieces Not on loan [low vocal register] All the way or walk away Because I can’t live alone with hope [Pre-Chorus] You want comfort You want clothing You want all the things you need But I’m not your waiting room While you choose who you will be [Chorus] [Bridge] It’s us or homeless Me or every shiny screen I’m not the spare bed You crawl to when you’re tired of the scene [whispered vocals] No more living scared Because you’re not there Say you’re in Or leave this air [Chorus]