Christmas For Misfits

[Verse 1] I straighten my scarf In the hallway mirror Counting my blemishes Like they’re ornaments Everyone’s laughing Through the paper-thin walls I rehearse my smile Til it stops making sense [Pre-Chorus] Tinsel in my hair Frost on my sweater I’m the ghost At my own get-together [Chorus] Christmas for misfits And I am the exhibit All this love Close enough to touch it Snow outside is perfect I’m the only crack in it Still I sit Afraid of this strange December light Somehow I fit In a Christmas for misfits tonight [Verse 2] I nod at the stories I’ve heard every year Measure my heartbeat Against clinking glass Their eyes are soft candles Mine are dim screens Scrolling my thoughts While the moments drift past [Pre-Chorus] Carols in the room Quiet in my depths I lean on the doorway Posing as a guest [Chorus] [Bridge] I raise my cup To the child I was Who never knew What to do with joy I'm breathing in cinnamon Breathing out an ache Let the quiet Have something to enjoy [whispered vocals] Even I Even I belong [Chorus]