I was there when the lights came on Before the walls had learned my name Before the noise became a kingdom Before the fire had a frame I kept a chair beside the furnace I fed the flame, I knew the glow I gave my hours like they meant something To a room I thought was home You laughed, I laughed, the night kept spinning Old trust settled in the floor Then one small sentence split the timber And I could not stand there anymore You said it light Like it weighed nothing Like ash don't fall Like blades don't rust But I heard years Crack in the ceiling And every memory Turned to dust I was there when the lights came on Now I cannot stand the glow One careless spark from a trusted tongue And the whole damn room went cold You said it once, I heard it forever Steel in the blood, rust in the bone I did not lose one stupid argument I lost the place I thought was home I know the shape of casual poison How it smiles when it sinks in How it walks right past the wreckage Like it never broke the skin You made my mind a punchline You made my trust a joke You threw a match and called it weather While I watched the rafters smoke There are words That do not vanish There are bells You cannot unring There are doors That close in silence There are cuts That never sing I was there when the lights came on Now the glow just burns my throat One careless spark from a trusted tongue And the whole damn room went cold You said it once, it echoed backward Through every hour I gave for free I did not lose one stupid argument I lost who I could be Say it light Watch it bury Say it once Make it carry Say it light Watch it sever Say it once I hear it forever You don't get to call it nothing When I carry all the weight You don't get to touch the fracture Then complain about the break I did not bring a torch I did not curse your name I left the room in silence With my hands still full of flame No trial No warning No crowd around the door Just one less shadow in the corner That won't come home no more I was there I was there I was there when the lights came on I was there I was there Now the warmth is gone I was there when the lights came on Now I bury what I know One careless spark from a trusted tongue And the whole damn room went cold You said it once, I heard it forever Steel in the blood, rust in the bone I did not lose one stupid argument I lost the place I thought was home Some doors don't slam Some fires don't roar Some friendships die When the room ain't safe anymore
