I just wanted to love again …wanted to love 'til the end I know what staying feels like had that long enough …I stopped asking… if it would last You wake up you make coffee you talk about nothing and somehow nothing becomes a life I just wanted to love again wanted to love wanted to …love 'til the end Not borrow it… Not visit… …Stay. After a while you learn how temporary people can be… …even when they mean it …Even when… you mean it too… So every beginning rears up with its own riddle How long? How close? How much of me is safe to give? And how do you ask that without already holding something back?… I just wanted to love again …wanted to love 'til the end Not almost Not until something changed I wanted mornings that became years A voice that stayed familiar A life that didn't feel borrowed That's all … That's a lot I've tried More than once Tried to let somebody become ordinary to me Tried to stop measuring how much leaving might hurt Tried to believe wanting something badly didn't make it fragile I just wanted to love again wanted to love wanted to …love 'til the end Maybe that's what I miss Not a face Not a name The feeling that tomorrow was already spoken for That there'd still be someone there when the day was done and I wouldn't have to wonder I just wanted to love again …wanted to love 'til the end I know what that means Maybe that's why I want it so much Maybe that's why I scare so easy Maybe that's why I still try I just wanted … to love again……
