[Intro] I play my emotions like an instrument Pull a note from somewhere I shouldn't touch Hold it long enough to write it down Then wonder why I can't shut it off [Verse 1] Feeling unstable Like im lost in a fable Reality collapsing In emotions no longer condensable I reach inside and pull them apart Looking for words in the wreckage Turn every feeling into a sound Then carry what's left when the song ends Pieces of me fracture out Keeping me from seeing The path beneath Ungrounded Floating thru the trees Loosing myself Body left behind on its knees [Pre-Chorus] I know how to open the door I never learned how to close it I know how to turn pain into music I dont know where it goes when it's over [Chorus] Awareness goes away Dont go, take me with you My body keeps walking Like it knows what to do I turn my pain into a song But the song dont take it away I play my emotions like an instrument Then feel the notes for days [Verse 2] Autopilot keeping me moving When I'm somewhere far away Answering questions Stocking the shelves Going through motions Like everything's okay But I'm trudging emotional wreckage Bloodied by something nobody sees Holding myself together outside While pieces keep retreating from me Stomach in knots bubbling Heart beating just to remind me There's still a body underneath Whatever the fuck is happening inside me Shadows give way Light shines briefly Then it fades to grey Just enough peace To remember what peace feels like Before it slips away [Pre-Chorus] I know how to open the door I never learned how to close it I know how to turn pain into music I dont know where it goes when it's over [Chorus] Awareness goes away Dont go, take me with you My body keeps walking Like it knows what to do I turn my pain into a song But the song dont take it away I play my emotions like an instrument Then feel the notes for days [Verse 3] Spent days in a drift Awareness gone afar Untethered to reality Watching myself from where you are Panic becomes the anchor Anxiety keeps my heart pumping Funny how fear keeps me grounded When I cant feel fucking nothing Invisible walls go up Right when I need to speak Words sitting somewhere inside me But my mouth wont let them leave It jus stops Doesnt tell me why Brain freezes Everything goes quiet And I'm standing there Feeling stupid Knowing something is happening But unable to fucking prove it Sometimes its really hard to be me Always living in uncertainty Trying to gather all the pieces While they keep retreating from me [Bridge] Maybe writing isn't release Maybe sometimes it's excavation Digging up everything buried Just to give it a name Maybe the song isn't medicine Maybe it's only translation Taking something without a voice And teaching it how to explain But once I give the feeling language It doesn't mean the feeling changed [Verse 4] Heart shattered into pieces Lost in a haze for days Writing the pain But the pain doesnt go away Emotions drag my corpse around In fractured ways Fog behind my eyes Till clouds fade Sun in the sky Brief relief Takes away grief And for a little while I can see the path beneath Then another feeling starts moving Somewhere too deep to name And I already know what I'll do with it Sit down Open the door Reach inside And play [Final Chorus] Awareness goes away Dont go, take me with you My body keeps walking Like it knows what to do I turn my pain into a song But the song dont take it away I play my emotions like an instrument Then feel the notes for days Shadows give way to the light Then the light fades back to grey I know exactly how to make the music I just dont know How to stop playing [Outro] The song ends The feeling doesn't
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