[Intro] [Intro] [dark piano, distant sirens, heavy 808 slowly fades in] Yeah… I been runnin’ so long, I forgot what I was runnin’ from [deep breath] Ain’t nobody see the weight when you carry it quiet Look… [Verse 1] I been runnin’ from my problems with my head down Same demons in the mirror when the lights out Self-aware, so I know that I messed up Hard to fix a life when your pride got you handcuffed Could’ve been a better man years back Could’ve made my mom smile, made my dad proud of that But I burned too many bridges with a cold face Now I walk through my regrets like a closed case No job, no love, no peace in my chest Got a heart full of guilt and a mind full of stress Every time I try to stand, I fall worse Like I’m cursed, like I’m livin’ in reverse [Pre-Chorus] And they say they proud, but I don’t believe it I see the pain in their eyes when they try to conceal it I made myself look bad, made the whole room heavy Now the weight on my back feelin’ way too deadly [Chorus] I keep runnin’, runnin’, runnin’ away But the pain catch up when I’m wide awake Heavy 808s in my soul all day I don’t wanna be seen, I just fade in the gray I keep runnin’, runnin’, runnin’ from me From the man I was, to the man I could be If I disappear, would they finally breathe? Or would I leave more pain where I used to be? [Verse 2] I don’t feel like I deserve no happy ending Every smile on my face feel like I’m just pretendin’ I done messed up love, messed up trust Turned good hearts into cold dust People gave me chances, I fumbled the blessing Now I’m sittin’ with the truth, no point in confessing I know what I did, I know what I broke I know every lie that I hid in my throat Streetlights flicker while I ride through the night Tryna outrun the shame but it’s glued to my life I ain’t scared of the dark, I been livin’ inside it Anger in my voice, but my soul tryna hide it [Pre-Chorus] And they say they proud, but I don’t believe it I see the pain in their eyes when they try to conceal it I made myself look bad, made the whole room heavy Now the weight on my back feelin’ way too deadly [Chorus] I keep runnin’, runnin’, runnin’ away But the pain catch up when I’m wide awake Heavy 808s in my soul all day I don’t wanna be seen, I just fade in the gray I keep runnin’, runnin’, runnin’ from me From the man I was, to the man I could be If I disappear, would they finally breathe? Or would I leave more pain where I used to be? [Bridge] [beat cuts low, deep bass pulse, whispered ad-libs] Maybe I’m tired… Maybe I’m broken… Maybe I’m the reason every door keeps closin’… But somewhere under all this damage and sin There’s a little bit of fight that ain’t dead within [Verse 3] So I drag this weight with blood on my shoes Got nothin’ left, but I still gotta choose Run from the pain or stand in the flame Look at my scars and call ’em by name I wish I changed when the years were kinder Now every mistake got a personal reminder But if I’m still breathin’, maybe that means God ain’t done with the wreckage inside of me I ain’t askin’ for flowers, I ain’t askin’ for praise I’m just tryna survive these miserable days Maybe one day my parents won’t have to pretend Maybe they’ll see a man who got up again [Final Chorus] I keep runnin’, runnin’, runnin’ away But tonight I might stop and face the pain Heavy 808s still shake my brain But I won’t let my shame put me in a grave I keep runnin’, runnin’, runnin’ from me But there’s still one fight in the man I could be If I disappear, I leave pain behind So I’ma carry this weight and survive tonight [Outro] [808 fades, piano returns, distant sirens] Yeah… I ain’t good yet… But I ain’t gone either… Carry this weight… Till I’m strong enough to set it down [Outro]
