I wrote this song sitting in my backyard, thinking about my life. ++++++++++++++++++++++++++ i wish i could say it clear but i dont even know what was real i loved you before i knew myself before i knew how to feel i carried pain that wasnt mine like it lived inside my skin i never learned how to protect myself just how to let you in i was made to grow i was made to move you watched me build a whole life out of what you gave me to use i take fragments and make them expand turn pressure into design what i focus on multiplies out thats a pattern of mine my legacy my sanctuary my healing built from the ground but i built it for us and disappeared never asking what i found i learned how to hear what you never said i learned how people withdraw i learned my reactions can level a world when i dont understand what theyre for i freeze i fawn i run then i fight just to stay alive my body kept score not broken just storing every signal and warning every shift before war my body kept score my body kept score i dont want to be alone i just want to be my own every pattern that i hold was a way to keep me whole i didnt choose this design but i learned how to read micro movements in silence what people hide when they speak i see patterns risk mapping i feel tension before it shows i track tone shifts body language i know how the story goes empathy patience loyalty lead i stabilize under pressure and move i take unstable and build it to form thats what i naturally do but nobody told me the cost of that where i end and you start so i gave everything piece by piece until i lost my own part but every time i came back burned i still rebuilt again like survival is written in bone like i dont know how to end my body kept score thats what it learned it for my body kept score my body kept score these reactions arent flaws theyre the shape of the cause every scar is a map of how i made it back i am not broken i am aware i am responsive because i was there my body remembered what i survived and now i decide how i use that design my body kept score but i dont live there anymore anymore anymore i dont want to be alone i just want to be my own this is not the end of me this is control returning Written, vocals & produced by Siren Queen Sara © 2026 Siren Queen Sara. All rights reserved.
