ネオンの森を すべる列車 窓の向こう 騒がしい街 笑い声が 遠くに響く 僕の時間は 止まったまま 行き先不明の 各駅停車 揺れる車両に 身を任せる 冷たく無機質なこの空間が 僕の心の癒しだった 言葉に流れ 形をなくす 揺蕩うクラゲみたいだった 誰かの顔で 笑う彼らに 僕はたまらず 目を逸らした 欲望の海に 立ち尽くす 全てが汚れて 見える僕は 差し出された手にさえ 触れられない 目眩がするほど 眩しい世界 僕はまた 目を閉じた 不意に開いた 冷たい扉 漏れ出す音に 耳を塞ぐ かつて聞いた あの音も 今では身体が 受け付けない 俯いたまま 音をさけて 座席の隅で身を固める 火傷の痕を 見つめながら 僕はただ 息をひそめた 変わらないままが 楽だから 何かを変えるのが 怖いから 傷つくくらいなら 動かなくていい 閉ざした心をまもるように 僕は今日も 目を逸らした 誰かの声に 顔を上げた 扉の先に 見慣れた影 確かめるように 立ち上がる あの日の声が 胸を揺らす 君がそこに 立っていた 僕は嫌いだ この世界が 縋ることしか出来ない自分が 消えない傷が増えてもなお キミとならばと 心が揺らぐ 黒い渦が 僕を縛る 息をするのも 絶え絶えで キミの声が 遠くなる 薄れゆく意識の中で 僕は「ごめん」と呟いた 僕を乗せて 列車は走る 降り方なんて 忘れてしまった ネオンの海を ひとり泳ぐ 僕は今日も 1人揺られている [English Sub ※DeepL] A train glides through a forest of neon lights A noisy city beyond the window Laughter echoes in the distance My time stands still The train stops at unknown destinations I let myself be carried along by the swaying train This cold, inorganic space was the solace of my heart. The words flowed and lost their form They were like jellyfish shaking in the air They laughed in someone else's face I couldn't help but look away. Standing in a sea of desire everything looked dirty I couldn't even touch the hand that was offered to me The world was dizzyingly blinding I closed my eyes again The cold door that opened unexpectedly I close my ears to the sound that leaks out That sound I once heard Now my body won't accept it I turn my head, avoiding the sound I freeze in the corner of my seat staring at the scars from my burns I simply hide my breath. It's easier to stay the same because I'm afraid to change something I don't need to move if I'm going to get hurt I'm trying to protect my closed heart Today, too, I looked away. I looked up at the sound of someone's voice A familiar shadow beyond the door I stood up as if to make sure The voice from that day shook my heart You were standing there I hate this world I can only cling to myself Even though the scars that won't disappear increase My heart wavers as if it were with you A black vortex binds me I can barely breathe Your voice grows distant In my fading consciousness I whisper "I'm sorry" The train is carrying me I've forgotten how to get off I'm swimming alone in a sea of neon lights I'm swaying alone today, too
