[Verse 1] I don’t feel the morning I just wait for night Everyone keeps talking But nothing feels right I smile out of habit But it’s empty inside I’m here, I exist But I’m barely alive [Pre-Chorus] And I know it sounds dramatic But it’s quiet, and it’s cold I don’t want to scare them So I never let it show [Chorus] I wanna be deaaaad (Just to make the noise stop) I wanna be deaaaad (Just to feel like I'm not) I'm so tired of this fight It’s not anger, it’s just dread I wanna be deaaaad [Verse 2] Some days I function Some days I can't They say "ask for help" But they don’t understand It’s not about dying It’s about wanting peace Just one moment of silence Where I finally feel free [Pre-Chorus] I’ve done all the breathing The walks, the sleep, the meds Still I lie awake Wishing I was someone else instead [Chorus] I wanna be deaaaad (But not in the way you think) I wanna be deaaaad (Just to step back from the brink) It’s not giving up It’s just losing the thread I wanna be deaaaad [Bridge – zacht, breekbaar] I’m not looking for pity I don’t want a fight Just wish I could pause This endless, dim light [Outro – stil en langzaam uitlopend] Maybe tomorrow I’ll feel a little less But tonight, I confess... I wanna be deaaaad
