Copyright L0stKydz, all rights reserved [Verse] Sometimes I lose myself within these bouts of misery. Telling myself I’m stuck in the confines of my mind. I never wanted to escape from something I’ve learned to love… Knowing the consequences, I thought my body would agree with me. But these shaking nerves are what make me feel like it was all deserved… For so long, I sought someone to blame. Before I knew I was the one who prolonged the pain. Letting myself live within my own fantasies without seeking true help? Because I brought this all on myself… [Chorus] I’ve been crying for so long that my eyes have dried out... Lost in a sea of nothingness, I’ve resigned myself to this... I hoped the hate would numb my thoughts. I hoped the scenes that I played would break me away from what I felt. It only provided me with more questions than answers. I let it all overwhelm me… By claiming I’m nothing more than a monster inside… If I keep blaming my pain that plagued my heart… Letting my brain be enslaved by these thoughts. (Oh) I’m sorry… (Oh) I’m sorry… To myself… (To myself…) (To myself…) [Instrumental] [Verse] I keep wanting to say what I mean… And I keep- Looking for other means… But the anxiety is responding… with I'm not okay… What did I do wrong to have drawn this hatred in my heart? What did I do to be so confused, I’m consuming- myself… And now I’m too afraid to leave this cell that I've made, I’m scared of what’s outside… Maybe my mom was right! I’m seeking punishment for doing nothing wrong… [Bridge] I'm Asking, Where should I, Where should I, go… I'm Falling, Inside of, Inside of, a hole… Maybe I’m alone! Maybe I deserve this pain! I'm losing myself… To the thoughts I withheld. I let it all overwhelm me… To escape from nothing else, but myself… [Instrumental] [Chorus] I’ve been crying for so long that my eyes have dried out... Lost in a sea of nothingness, I’ve resigned myself to this... I hoped the hate would numb my thoughts. I hoped the scenes that I played would break me away from what I felt. It only provided me with more questions than answers. I let it all overwhelm me… By claiming I’m nothing more than a monster inside… If I keep blaming my pain that plagued my heart… Letting my brain be enslaved by these thoughts. (Oh) I’m sorry… (Oh) I’m sorry… To myself… (To myself…) (To myself…) [Instrumental] Because I brought this all on myself… Why do I feel hopeless, when I'm all alone at- night! Why do I keep feeling, like the world -doesn't want me alive! I feel it's from the wounds outside… Because I brought this all on myself…
