Shhh… Scalpel clean… heartbeat mean… A-a-a… aaa a-a-a… Welcome to the ward… Used to patch skin, now I carve in minds Every sleepless night left fractures in time RTA world — breathless, bleeding alive Everybody screaming “survive,” but nobody survives No gain — just pain, they called it “for fun” Truth cut deeper than the barrel of a gun Tried fixing the room, room poisoned the lungs Smiling malicious while they twisted their tongues Doctor gown hanging loose like a joke on my spine O.T. lights turned psych ward white Promises I made came back just to bite Was it day? Was it night? I forgot that fight Mind gone numb, obsidian lungs Held rage in my chest till the wires got sprung You stood your ground — mine cracked underneath Heart started fumbling while rage found teeth (Aaa… a-a-a…) Smile so wide when the dark come alive (Aaa… a-a-a…) You can run but the truth gon’ survive Mad-man doc gone crazy Turned my scars into a symphony Skin was phase one — now I brand your memory Hear that beat? That’s pain talking literally Run — run — truths gon’ haunt you Don’t look back — I’m right behind you Too far to see, too close to feel One touch — know the madness real (Aaa… a-a-a…) Happy doom in a smiling face (Aaa… a-a-a…) This night never leave no trace Operate slow while the bassline breathe Morphine dreams got you dancing with grief Tried bargaining pain — pain charged a fee Now I see the whole game surgically All that junk, all that funk Built pressure in my chest till the circuits went punk Electro-pop heartbeat ready to erupt Everybody love pain till the truth show up Stitching wounds in my head like art Every little betrayal took a piece apart Madness came gentle, piece by piece Now silence loud and the war don’t cease Doctor to clown — yeah laugh at the fit Still stood through nights when the whole world split Blinding lights — no sleep, no peace Now the calm in me died — rage released (Aaa… a-a-a…) Smile so sweet when the room turns cold (Aaa… a-a-a…) Every secret eventually gets told Mad-man doc gone crazy Turned my scars into a symphony Skin was phase one — now I brand your memory Hear that beat? That’s pain talking literally Run — run — truths gon’ haunt you Don’t look back — I’m right behind you Too far to see, too close to feel One touch — know the madness real What I got from it? Tell me, y’all — what? Long nights, cold hands, stomach in a knot Everybody preaching while the soul still rot I paid every bill for a dream they forgot Inner strength came late — price too high Lost myself trying hard not to die inside Now every truth cut sharp like glass And every fake smile got an X-ray pass I know your psyche — know your heat Know the guilt hidden under heartbeat Say what you want — masks decay Truth got patience, it don’t fade away So if you hear this — let it crawl in your chest Let it bloom in your head till it won’t let you rest Mad-man doc with the grin too wide Still alive — but something inside died Mad-man doc gone crazy Turned my scars into a symphony Mad-man doc gone crazy Hear that beat? That’s pain talking literally (Aaa… a-a-a…) Happy doom in a smiling face (Aaa… a-a-a…) You can run — truth know your place
