I’m sick I’m sick I need some medicine Need to get better feel good again Step out of my mother New on the scene started out with my tetanus, m m r and hepatitis b vaccine The I was 3 a part of the day care crew Fever, runny nose and caught the flu Temperature one hundred and three, moms gave me Tylenol, fever down a little bit but did not totally fall Temperature now one hundred and one, went to the Emergency Department and they said take some Motrin son Then I broke my leg at the age of thirteen Pain 10/10 they gave me IV morphine Pain was better I was even feeling wavy Oh no all of a sudden my gut was feeling crazy Nauseous and vomting all over in the bed pan Next came the iv zofran Later they gave Ativan for performance anxiety Next thing I knew I had an allergy given Benadryl Then develop hypertension given lisinopril Unfortunately had the side effect of angioedema swollen lips and throat Couldn’t breath or swallow or clear my throat Now i needed r s I for intubation Etomidate and succinylcholine for laryngeal manipulation Then even more frustration my blood pressure tanked and i was almost have dead The icu doctor had to start levophed, even with this pressure I was headed for the coffin Started a power antibiotic to fight my life called Zosyn As I was dying of sepsis I was in a haze Delirious in a stupor began my dopamine haze Finally the doctor said for get it he’s basically dead Let’s make sure he doesn’t remember his suffering give him Iv ver sed I’m sick I’m sick I need some medicine Need to get better feel good again Yes right now life is hard It’s has me outside right now Like I’m in the yard It’s like I’m surrounded by three brolic killers Each with a superfied weapon which is iller Iller Than the next one that can cause carnage Have my soul traveling quick as far as the state of Carthage Right now everything is against me Sent to me To inflict as pain as much as there can be Rain yes Yes rain down on me I’m Going down but not Mary b B bopping bee buzzing a trillion stings just zinging me until all my histamine center start to ring Redness and hives all over me Evil and darkness hover over me Super explosive bombs c 4 getting it popping see See there no let up by the universe universe knows I can take it Putting my head down humming we gonna make it Endurance and resilience you can’t fake it Keep poking the bear and you going to wake it Cooking up comebacks yes we gone bake it One foot in front of the other Here come another problem one right after the other I’m so troubled got me screaming out loud for my mother Frustration radiating down beaming across chest Have me wanting to bring back my father from his rest Since they died it feels like I have no family Not one person that understands me The stands on business and stands right beside me Or back to back with the gat like a Stan Lee Comic hero or a dc villain like bane breaking backs of Batman yelling out can you feel the pain Pain yes pain that is so fresh Dilaudid and morphine can’t impress I bench press all these abnormalities Strength of a thousand men all fatalities Mortal combat no morality at the end of the day my survival is all that matters see. Here I lay in abyss Thoughts of nothing no chance to reminisce No feelings of love or devotion Emptiness no emotion Feeling real lost this morning Sub zero frost all is lost heart is mourning Mourning love lost no where to grow How did we get here honestly I’ll never know Check on isle 9 looking for that miracle But now everything is empty no miracle gro I’ve been trying to love something that don’t want to be loved Love into a vacuum of never grow Empty wasteland barren of care No frequency of emotion emotionally bare Man I committed twenty years, gave up everything swallowed all my fears Surrendered all my cares for what Only disrespect and blank stares Is this the end like new edition said I lost everything I lost my best friend Sitting here by myself devastated Nothing there escalated emptiness Peace evaporated listlessness Here I lay in abyss Thoughts of nothing no chance to reminisce No feelings of love or devotion Emptiness no emotion
