My Party's over; the joke got older Failure after failure Trashed reputation And given the cold shoulder No surprise; wasted years Sad for life Ups and downs And downs, and downs. An' more downs Tired of crawling through the desert Tired of being miserable Sick of being tired; tired of being sick This misery is palpable Can you feel it. I can; it's all illness, shame and fear Projections, no protections Rock-bottom on top of the world Falling forever in a downward spiral It never stops; this dread and shock Pulse is weak Heart's skipping beats Stay wise; keep your distance Be free of me. This sadboy shits necrotic to the core A state of being I no longer wish 2 explore But its who I am; since conception. I shouldn't be here...; but I Am. An' I Am in your ear. Guess the responsibility is mine/at this point in time/I stay locked up'n my spot/its'a self-imprisonment life./Why accept all'th penalties for my actions/no one got hurt/an no one got pregnant. 'Cept one demon: WE created God. I know God loves me, but ain't allowed to call. Fast forward to the here an now/things aren't great/forgot what I was complaining about. Thats the way it goes. That same old sound. 100-year-old, wise sadboy clown. This sadboy shits necrotic to the core A state of being I no longer wish 2 explore But its who I am; since conception. I shouldn't be here...; but I Am. An' I Am in your ear. Trained to save the world; Neglect yourself. Ask that world for help... And get shot down. All ends are the end... Nothin' left. All ends are the end. Permanent solution to nothing.
