I don’t want diamonds.I don’t want fame.I want the thing behind the thing that words could never claim... World's still turning, I been here awhile,I'm still smiling like a guy they forgot to exile. Black heart and bright eyes,Laughing in the mirror while I try to read my mind. I got a pulse like a fraud in a holy place,A rodeo soul trapped in a fleshy cage.Every little win turns thin in my hands,I'm smoke doing tricks in the shape of a man. I need a sign or I'm gonna scream. I'm still lookin' for a light. Been walkin' this lonely road to redemption my whole damn life...,Hope it ends soon. I don't want money, I want mercy from none. I want the existential fun, and magic optimistic doom.I want the roar underneath every room.I want the beautiful bloom in every wound.I wannna feel it all go boom! Bigger than this body, bigger than this town,Bigger than the fever trying to pin me down.I keep getting what I wanted, then I want past that.I keep swallowing the lightning, still I starve like that. Bigger than the bright lights, bigger than the score,There’s a locked thing in me kicking down the door.Give me more than a moment.Give me more than a fix.I’m not hungry for the world.I’m hungry past it I’m in a panic. Iconclastic bastard banished'n walkin the wrong path, —godspeed, Im headed for a relapse. Head full of horsemen, heart full of pop songs,My lifeforce is still buffering, "-please hold on..." Clinically cynical, miracle-starved,Laughing hard in the psych ward sitting in the dark.Chasing a beast with fangs and wings,Go callin' it destiny when the bite stings. I been up 5 nights negotiating with the static./Half charismatic, fully automatic.My shadow got brave an' started talking back,Said, You call this a life cuz I call it your trap. Told it, Stop your lies.It replied, Please open your tired eyes. I said, I want peace/I'm sick'a layin' on the floor. It yelled, pick yer ass back up, 'cuz you want way more... More than sleep, more than checks, more than sex, more than praise,More than my music gettin' plays all day.More than applause from a room full of ghosts.I need the part of stayin' alive that most people don’t Bigger than this body, bigger than this town,Bigger than the fever trying to pin me down.I keep getting what I wanted, then I want past that.I keep swallowing the lightning, still I starve like that. Bigger than the bright lights, bigger than the score,There’s a locked thing in me kicking down the door.Give me more than a moment.Give me more than a fix.I’m not hungry for the world.I’m hungry past it I can feel something waiting on the other side of being alive. So let the west go electric.Let the church bells hit.Let the choir catch fire like they're burnin' a witch.Let the lap steel weep like tears and stars falling.Let my own damn demons stop calling/and calling/and calling I’ll meet them all in the gutter of my mind tonight, with white-knuckled fists clenched full'a blinding,black light. Theyll say You’re sick. I’ll say You’re mine. Then we’ll all start laughin' 'bout our same sad times. Cuz I don’t need hate.I need contact.I need the real thing ripping through the abstract. I need cruelty killing time,stopping the clock-hands' tick. I need whatever comes after this, ......and I need it quick. Bigger than this body, bigger than this town,Bigger than the fever trying to pin me down.I keep getting what I wanted, then I want past that.I keep swallowing the lightning, still I starve like that Bigger than the bright lights, bigger than the score,There’s a locked thing in me kicking down the door.Give me more than a moment.Give me more than a fix.I’m not hungry for the world.I’m hungry past it I don’t want diamonds.I don’t want fame.I want the thing behind the thing that words could never claim.
