I Đidn’t Quit Todaƴ

[verse 1] alarm went off at 4:47, i stared at the ceiling thumb hovering over snooze like it owed me something cold floor, same hoodie from yesterday sink full of dishes, protein shaker smells sour phone lit up—bill due, final notice in red i sat on the edge of the bed too long told myself five more minutes, knew it was a lie no music, no hype—just the hum of the fridge i thought about quitting right there, quiet, clean no speech, no post—just disappear from the plan [pre-chorus] i said it out loud in the dark, i don’t have it today heard my own voice and didn’t believe it [chorus] i don’t need a reason, i need to move shoes on, laces tight, no mood, just do if i wait to feel ready, i’ll stay where i am so i go anyway, even when i don’t give a damn i don’t feel strong, i just don’t stop that’s the only difference between me and the drop [verse 2] missed the setup at 9:32, chased the next candle watched it reverse like it knew my name closed red again, small but it stacks group chat popping, easy day, caught the whole move i muted it, stared at the chart like it owed me back hands shaking over the mouse, wanted to revenge closed the laptop instead, sat in the silence ate eggs standing up, didn’t taste anything thought about the job i hate and the clock on the wall thought about texting i’m done and meaning it [pre-chorus] i whispered, you’re not built for this, just to hear it sounded real for a second—then it didn’t [chorus] i don’t need a reason, i need to move shoes on, laces tight, no mood, just do if i wait to feel ready, i’ll stay where i am so i go anyway, even when i don’t give a damn i don’t feel strong, i just don’t stop that’s the only difference between me and the drop [verse 3] leg day, bar felt heavier than it should two plates felt like four, hands slipping chalk guy next to me laughing with his friends i’m counting breaths between reps, staring at the floor text from home, how long are you gonna do this i typed a reply, deleted it twice finished the set with a shaky last rep sat in the locker room longer than needed looked at my face in the mirror and didn’t recognize it that scared me more than the weight [bridge] there’s no speech that fixes this no line that flips a switch it’s just small choices nobody sees stacked on days i want to leave [final chorus] i don’t need a reason, i need to move shoes on, laces tight, no mood, just do if i wait to feel ready, i’ll stay where i am so i go anyway, even when i don’t give a damn i don’t feel strong, i just don’t stop that’s the only difference between me and the drop [outro] next alarm’s already set i know i’ll hate it when it rings i’ll still get up not because i’m better because i didn’t quit today