Toxicity

___ I’ve been spaced out Ever since you've gone Laying on the couch Staring at the screen Waiting for the reply that will never come by Fingers stuck over the 'send' as if I'm thumb-tied There's an empty pit Deep in my stomach Cannot fill this hole Left by your rough wake Wanna say it is your fault but I am to blame I kept breaking down your trust just to feel okay Never thought I’d feel this way After you left on that day It’s an ironic sort of pain Debilitating and insane Toyed with your heart strings Shrugged off how you felt I was in it for the game And for the toxic love Your pain made me feel alive and I fed off the drama Guess I never really knew how much it harmed-ya I'm due for karma It's true, I know, yeah Lived like there were no tomorrow Be damned the consequences Now I gotta live with my own homemade sorrow Never thought I’d feel this way After you left on that day It’s an ironic sort of pain Debilitating and insane Loved the attention ‘n the way you squirmed But I was afraid of the commitment ‘N lost you to resentment Never thought I’d feel this way After you left on that day It’s an ironic sort of pain Debilitating and insane Waiting for the reply that will never come by Fingers stuck over the 'send' as if I was thumb-tied Wanna say it is your fault but I am to blame I kept breaking down your trust just to feel okay ___