Blackout in My Halo

[Verse 1] Woke up counting all my scars Same four steps across the floor Touch the handle Breathe in four Check the lock Check the lock once more [Verse 2] Newsfeed dripping red and blue Tiny wars inside my chest You say love is all we need I keep tracing worst-case deaths [Pre-Chorus] Are you real Or just a pattern in my head If I heal Do I lose you with the mess I shed [Chorus] Blackout in my halo Kiss me in the crossfire Slow If this is love then let it hurt Let it hurt Spin me in the chaos Both our hands are stained Still soft If this is love then let it burn Let it burn [Refrain] I can’t tell if we’re holy or broken I just know that I can’t look away [Verse 3] Every heartbeat feels like proof Every silence feels like threat Say you’re fine I hear goodbye Hear the worst in every breath [Verse 4] Armies marching in my thoughts Tiny flags on every fear You say “breathe You’re safe with me” I still scan the room for tears [Pre-Chorus] Are you peace Or just a truce before the storm If I sleep Will you be gone before it’s warm [Chorus] [Refrain] I can’t tell if we’re holy or broken I just know that I can’t look away [Bridge] Two kids on a fault line Holding hands Timing every sway (every sway) If the world splits under us Would you jump or would you stay (would you stay) Whisper all your secret sins Stack them neatly next to mine If we add them If we bless them Do they cancel by design [Chorus]