"Hey Mom. Yeah, I'm doing okay. I'm alive. Just cleaned up my place. Yeah..." tuesday mornin, cereal bowl on the floor three-day ol clothes blockin up the door coffee burnt, alarm died five ayy emm toothbrush dry while i pretend again mom text, “how’s ya week,” i type “great” grin meanwhile sinks doin' a dishpile spin pizza boxes stacked like cardboard mon-yew-ments bills unopened on the counter, kitchen bench mirror show a stranger wearin yesterday’s mistakes lace up busted sneakers, I’mma take what it takes i’m tired livin like a ghost in my own skin time to clean house, let the real me in i’m sortin thru the mess i made inside my head (are you with me) throwin out the voices tellin me to stay in bed (are you with me) brain like dirty laundry, foldin every piece findin buried treasure under chaos, under grief i’m alive, i’m alive, i’m alive, that’s enough sortin thru my dirty laundry, risin' from the stuff yeah, yeah, I'm alive, ooh-ooh yeah, yeah, I'm risin', ooh-ooh yeah, yeah, I'm alive, ooh-ooh yeah, yeah, I'm risin', ooh-ooh ther’pist say trauma live in muscle mem’ry i’m untyin knots i didn’t know were heavy started joggin tuesday, made a half a block wednesday crawled to seven, friday didn’t stop group chat blowin up with weekend party plans i showed up in sweats, they grabbed my tremblin hands laughed till my stomach hurt, forgot i was afraid broken kinds like us know the games minds played learnin how to live in this body once again collectin scattered pieces, buildin bridges, makin friends i’m sortin thru the mess i made inside my head (are you with me) throwin out the voices tellin me to stay in bed (are you with me) brain like dirty laundry, foldin every piece findin buried treasure under chaos, under grief i’m alive, i’m alive, i’m alive, that’s enough sortin thru my dirty laundry, risin from the stuff yeah, yeah, I'm alive, ooh-ooh yeah, yeah, I'm risin', ooh-ooh yeah, yeah, I'm alive, ooh-ooh yeah, yeah, I'm risin', ooh-ooh (are you with me) (are you with me) when noise in my head get too loud (are you with me) when you’re lost inside the crowd hey, it’s me, tuesday, two ayy emm cleaned my room today, it feel like zen found a photo of us laughin by my bed first time in months i didn’t wish i was dead small wins count, little flags in the light i think i’m gonna be alright yeah yeah, gonna be alright yeah yeah, gonna be alright yeah yeah, gonna be alright yeah, yeah, I'm alive, (ooh-ooh) (ooh-ooh), I'm risin', (ooh-ooh) (ooh-ooh), we're alive, (ooh-ooh) i’m sortin thru the mess i made inside my head (are you with me) throwin out the voices tellin me to stay in bed (are you with me) brain like dirty laundry, foldin every piece findin buried treasure under chaos, under grief i’m alive, i’m alive, i’m alive, that’s enough sortin thru my dirty laundry, risin from the stuff tuesday mornin, clean sheets on the floor yesterday’s gone, today i’m openin the door spin cycle heart, rinse, breathe, rise hang sun-bright hope on the clothesline sky (are you with me) (are you with me) we’re alive, we’re alive, we’re alive
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