[Intro – distorted bass pulse like a heartbeat, half-time drums] [Verse 1] He's sweet, he's trying, he laughs on cue I nod and I smile and I'm thinking of you I excuse myself like I've got it together Then I fall apart in the bathroom, worse than ever [Pre-Chorus] Pathetic, I know Grown woman and I still can't let go [Chorus] You're still in my bloodstream Every beat says your name I cry it out loud and I drown in the shame You're still in my bloodstream You walked out, I stayed Calling for you like you'll come back today Stupid sad So stupid sad [Verse 2] I pull myself up, I practice being fine He asks if I'm okay, I lie a second time A good man is waiting, he deserves so much better Than a girl still begging for a love gone forever [Pre-Chorus] Pathetic, I know Every road I take leads back to you though [Chorus] You're still in my bloodstream Every beat says your name I cry it out loud and I drown in the shame You're still in my bloodstream You walked out, I stayed Calling for you like you'll come back today Stupid sad So stupid sad [Rap – NF-style, intimate, building] Yeah, look, I'm a mess with a pretty face Telling everybody I'm healing, I'm making space But you're in the ache, in the shake of my voice Every time I try to move on it's like I never had a choice Said I'm over it, liar, I'm under it, buried Carried you so long I forgot I was carrying Date night, cry night, same old fight Me against your memory and I lose every time [Bridge – rising] Why did you go Why am I still here Why does your name fall out of me like a tear Will it ever stop Will I ever breathe Or do you live inside me permanently [Final Chorus – bass erupts into full thrash gallop, belted] You're still in my bloodstream Every beat says your name I scream it out loud and I drown in the shame You're still in my bloodstream You walked out, I stayed Bleeding for you like you'll come back today Stupid sad So stupid sad [Outro – bass alone, heartbeat slowing, unresolved] I'm fine I'm fine Stupid sad [Fade out]
