Diesel Motion - Self-Sabotage

Why do I break what I build? Why do I run when it’s real? On a demolition mission bruv! Self-sabotage… I built it brick by brick, then I kicked it down King of my own little cursed ghost town Crown look heavy but it don’t fit right Smile in the day but I fight all night Mind on a spiral, a vinyl rewind Pain in the chest but I tell ’em “I’m fine” Success at the door but I hide inside Hands on the wheel but I swerve my drive I get close then I cut it loose Set fire to the proof in the booth with the truth Got talent? Cool. Still self-destruct Turn gold into dust when I lose that trust Yeah I fear what I prayed for Run from the love that I crave more Deep down I wage war With the version of me I was made for Why do I ruin the rise? Why do I blur my own lines? When it’s finally mine… I press decline. Why do I break my escape? Why do I sabotage fate? When it’s looking great… I hesitate. Self-sabotage, I light the match Burn the bridge, can’t take it back Heart on ice but the fuse still sparks I tear my world apart Self-sabotage, I cut the wire Kill the flame of my own desire Every time that I get this far I break my own restart Paranoid thoughts in a 2-step swing Hear that doubt when the phone line rings Opportunities knock but I ghost that call If I don’t try, I can’t fall That’s logic twisted, pessimistic Self-inflicted ballistic physics I move like I’m scared of winning Scared of shining, scared of beginning Yeah trauma coded the blueprint Success feel foreign, I reboot Comfort in chaos, that’s true truth Peace feel fake so I self-shoot Pull back when it gets intense Push love away, build high defence Say I’m cool but it makes no sense When I wreck my own confidence Maybe I’m scared that I won’t sustain it Maybe I’m scared that I won’t maintain it Maybe I fear if I really attain it They’ll see I ain’t it Maybe I break it before they can Maybe I ghost before they abandon Maybe I ruin my master plan ’Cause pain feels safer than standing. Look — I’m done with the cycle, done with the crash Done letting fear put a lock on the latch Done with the comfort of living in ash Done with the past Shadowboxing with my own reflection Self-rejection became protection But protection turned to infection Now I’m correcting direction No more burning the ladder I climb No more dimming the fire that’s mine No more pressing decline on shine No more wasting time If I build it, I guard it If I earn it, I chart it If it’s love, I don’t starve it If it’s growth, I don’t target Self-sabotage had a grip on me bro Now accountability sets me free Same intensity — different energy Now I weaponise clarity I used to break what I built… Now I build what I break… No more self-sabotage. That's a promise to myself bruv.