[Intro] I have to tell you something I don't like the way I feel I wish I could make it smaller wish I could make it less real [Verse 1] I felt small I felt jealous felt something I can't defend and I hated that I felt it before the feeling even ends There, I said it God, that sounds ugly I thought I was past all that [Pre-Chorus] And I'm ashamed that I'm ashamed that's the part I can't explain feeling bad about the feeling then feeling bad again [Chorus] I don't want your pity I don't want to be absolved I just want to say what happened without trying to solve it I got hurt and I didn't like it I got angry, couldn't hide it I wanted to be bigger but I wasn't, not tonight ( I wasn't, not tonight ) [Verse 2] And thank God for that iron rule I know exactly where I'd go No drink No dose No exit nothing there to make it stop Maybe this is my lesson maybe that's another lie maybe I turn pain into meaning 'cause I can't stand asking why [Pre-Chorus] Maybe I built that wall myself just to find out it could fall maybe I needed something real to know I'm human after all And what does that make me? What does that reveal? If I love myself when I'm good can I love myself when I feel [Chorus] I don't want your pity I don't want to be absolved I just want to say what happened without trying to solve it I got hurt and I didn't like it I got angry, couldn't hide it I wanted to be bigger but I wasn't, not tonight [Bridge] Petty jealous weak afraid Small enough to hate I don't know why it hurts this much I don't know why I care I don't know why I need to know why I care that I care [Break] Maybe I'm just disappointed and it's late and I'm human Maybe that's okay [Final Chorus] I don't want your pity I don't want to be absolved I just want to say what happened without trying to solve it I got hurt and I didn't like it I got angry, couldn't hide it I wanted to be bigger but I wasn't, not tonight I wasn't, not tonight [Outro] Take the perfect version off me I don't need to wear it here This is what I felt This is what I am
