A Cosmic Joke

Look at the skin stretched tight across the bone A walking cemetery, always alone. I’ve seen the worst of what a man can do And worst of all, I watched myself do it too. The mileage on my soul is a cosmic joke Every dream I ever chased just went up in smoke. There is no wisdom in the scars I wear Just twenty years of swallowing the black despair. It’s too late for saving, too late to pretend! I’ve seen the ugly beginning and the filthy end! My mind is a prison, the sentence is life Cutting through the memories with a rusty knife! Yeah, I’ve seen too much, I’ve lived too long And every single thing I ever loved is gone! The ghosts don't even whisper, they just sit and stare In the quiet corners of this cold nightmare. I’m sick of the breathing, I’m sick of the beat Of a heart that refuses to accept defeat. It’s a bitter taste, it’s a heavy chain There is no lesson in this kind of pain. Just a dirty room and a broken mind And the terrifying things that I’ve left behind. It’s too late for saving, too late to pretend! I’ve seen the ugly beginning and the filthy end! My mind is a prison, the sentence is life Cutting through the memories with a rusty knife! Yeah, I’ve seen too much, I’ve lived too long And every single thing I ever loved is gone! Too many faces... too many lies... I watched the light die in a thousand eyes. Don't tell me it gets better, don't tell me it's fine! I’ve crossed every goddamn borderline! I’m done! I’m done with the fight! It’s too late for saving, too late to pretend! I’ve seen the ugly beginning and the filthy end! My mind is a prison, the sentence is life Cutting through the memories with a rusty knife! Yeah, I’ve seen too much, I’ve lived too long And every single thing I ever loved is gone! Nothing left to give. Nothing left to see. Just the wreckage... Of what used to be me. A old hurt salty soul. Dead inside.