Lucky (You Left Me Alive) Vera Static | Remix

[Intro – distant guitar feedback, intimate female whisper, barely audible static] “You’re lucky I stayed.” (That’s what you told me…) And God, I almost believed you. [Verse 1 – low feminine clean vocals, fragile rasp] You wore your kindness for the neighbors Like a coat you only used outside I memorized your tires on the gravel So I knew when I should run and hide You said nobody else could love me Made it sound like something beautiful And every time I tried to question You reminded me I should be grateful [Pre-Chorus – restrained, trembling voice, second raspy voice underneath] (Soft) Maybe I’m imagining things (Harsh whisper) YOU KNOW WHAT YOU SAW (Soft) Maybe I should keep the peace (Harsh whisper) WHAT PEACE? WHAT FOR? I kept swallowing the warning signs Till they started burning in my throat [Chorus – explosive melodic post-hardcore, strained raspy female belts] Lucky, lucky, wasn’t I? Sleeping with an exit in my mind You got to wear the halo While I learned to disappear inside Lucky, lucky, hear me now I finally know what that word hides You don’t get to call it mercy Just because you left me alive [Post-Chorus – rough clean vocals, trailing distortion] Alive… You left me alive… And called it love. [Verse 2 – restrained clean voice, drums building underneath] You told our friends I was unstable Said you’d carried me for years I was standing in the kitchen Trying not to show my tears I almost let you have the ending Almost said that you were right Then I heard you call me lucky— [INSTANT BAND CUT – sudden furious female scream] I WAS AFRAID OF YOU! [Full band crashes back – raw raspy half-sung delivery] You can tell them I’m the villain I won’t kneel to keep you kind You can rewrite every memory But you can’t rewrite mine! [Chorus – louder, ragged vocal cracks, harsh voice doubling the last lines] Lucky, lucky, wasn’t I? Sleeping with an exit in my mind You got to wear the halo While I learned to disappear inside Lucky, lucky, hear me now I finally know what that word hides You don’t get to call it mercy JUST BECAUSE YOU LEFT ME ALIVE! [Bridge – sudden eerie silence, intimate internal dialogue] (Soft, almost crying) Maybe you were trying… (Harsh whisper) No. (Soft) Maybe you did love me… (Harsh whisper) No. (Soft, breaking) Then why did I stay so long? [Two seconds of dead silence] [Breakdown – crushing guitars, explosive female scream] YOU DIDN’T RESCUE ME! YOU WERE THE FIRE! YOU DIDN’T SHELTER ME! YOU HELD THE DOOR! YOU DON’T GET TO TELL MY STORY! [Deep sustained raspy female scream] I DON’T OWE YOU ANYMORE! [Final Chorus – clean and screamed female voices fighting, full emotional release] Lucky, lucky, look at me I’m everything you said I’d never be You got to keep your halo But you don’t get what’s left of me Lucky, lucky, hear me now I’m not the girl you kept inside You don’t get to call it mercy Just because you left me alive! [Outro – guitars fade, single trembling voice] (Soft, exhausted) You said I was lucky… (Pause) Maybe I am. Because I finally left. [Final whispered echo] …alive. [End – dying amplifier hum, one distant feedback note]