Verse 1 Blue lights, cold hands, stretcher in the hall Body going violent, like I had no control at all I was seizing, I was fading, I was trying just to breathe Then the ones who should protect me put more fear inside of me You wore the uniform like that made you safe But a title means nothing when you violate And I still feel the moment like a bruise beneath my skin You crossed a line I didn’t know I’d have to live within Pre-Chorus You said, “Calm down” You said, “She’s gone too far” You made me sound like danger When I was already scarred You tried to write the story Before I got to speak But the truth don’t disappear Just because you bury me Verse 2 You looked at me like I was just a problem on a bed Like pain was in my attitude and not inside my head Like if you rolled your eyes enough, the truth would disappear But I was fighting for my life while drowning in the fear And that nurse with all her coldness and her polished little grin Made me feel impossible for breaking in my skin You can label me unstable, you can say I’m all too much But nothing about that moment made your cruelty a crutch Pre-Chorus You said, “She’s crazy” Like that explains it all Like women turn to fiction When their bodies start to fall But my bones still hold the echo My nerves still spark the shame And no, I won’t go quiet Just to make you feel okay Bridge You don’t get to hurt me Then hide behind a name You don’t get to shame me Then walk away unchanged I was there I was there And I remember all of it I was there I was there And I’m done being small for it Final Chorus Go on, call me crazy I’ve heard it all before But I came back breathing Now I’m kicking down the door A paramedic touched me A nurse denied the flame But I survived the terror And I will not take the blame Nonstop seizures, black and blue Still I made my way back through You can call me anything, baby But don’t call it care Don’t call it care Yeah, call me crazy But don’t call it care Outro Don’t call it help Don’t call it love Don’t call it healing When it was violence dressed up
