Keep It Together

I thought I’d feel better Once I said I was done I thought it would get quiet Once I stopped running But it didn’t go quiet It just got empty Now it’s just me in my head And it won’t let me sleep I keep replaying the same parts Like that changes anything Like if I go back through it It won’t hurt like this I’m trying not to fall Trying to keep it together I’m trying not to call Just to make me feel better I’m trying not to fall Trying to keep it together I’m trying not to call Just to make me feel better I don’t miss you like that I miss my peace I miss not checking every word For what it really means I keep thinking I should’ve known I keep thinking it’s my fault Then I remember You knew what you were doing I’m not saying I was perfect I’m saying I was there You don’t lie like that by accident You lie and then act like it’s nothing I’m trying not to fall Trying to keep it together I’m trying not to call Just to make me feel better I’m trying not to fall Trying to keep it together I’m trying not to call Just to make me feel better I keep picking up my phone Then putting it back down ’Cause I know how this goes When you pull me back around I’m not going back I’m not doing that again I just want my mind to stop But it won’t I’m trying not to fall Trying to keep it together I’m trying not to call Just to make me feel better I’m trying not to fall Trying to keep it together I’m trying not to call Just to make me feel better Just to make me feel better