[Intro] [A fast, driving 4/4 outlaw country "train beat" rhythm starts] [The snare keeps a steady, galloping click-clack pace like tires on a highway] [A worn acoustic guitar chugs along with a low, lonesome pedal steel guitar] [Verse 1] She left the house and left a plan that was a wild mistake Wanted to move her boyfriend in and see how much I’d take A recipe for a disaster that I couldn't bear I told her no and lost the roof, but I didn't care Packed my bags for an extended stay under the neon sign Done with the past, I started looking for a love online Met a trans girl, she moved right in, the waters started to clear Until the hammer dropped again and took my career The only anchor that I had was swept into the sea Left me stranded on the floor with no security. [Verse 2] [The bass guitar hits a heavy, walking country groove] [The pedal steel guitar lets out a long, crying slide note] Red tape and documentation locked me in a cage Couldn't get a new job, couldn't turn the page I told her I just need a month out on the mountain peaks Gotta get to Colorado, fix it in a couple weeks The system in the Rockies hadn't made its way down south To Oklahoma or to Texas or the word of mouth So we hit the interstate, a winding, shifting lane Ended up in old Virginia in her folks' domain Living underneath their roof, a heavy, quiet weight Running from the paperwork and running from the state. [Chorus] [The band swells with full, road-weary outlaw country energy] [Vocals are raspy, urgent, and driving] And I'm jumping back and forth across the white-lined road Virginia to the mountains with a heavy load Trying to find a steady ground to place my weary feet Chasing down my identity on a two-way street! [Verse 3] [The rhythm keeps its steady, galloping train-beat pace] Infidelity came knocking, broke the bond in two So I headed to the Rockies, got my papers through Fixed the ID, turned around to find a different spark Back down to Virginia, but it left me in the dark Another failure on the coast, another broken line So I headed back to Colorado, giving it my time Stayed a whole year and a half, a life was being made Solid ground beneath my boots, stepping from the shade But like a fool I let her back, I turned the truck around Left the life I built behind for that Virginia ground. [Bridge] [The drums drop out, leaving a stark, rhythmic acoustic guitar strum] [Vocals are deep, intimate, and definitive] I got back to her doorway just to hear the newest lie She looked me in the mirror and she looked me in the eye Said she didn't even realize that I was trans the same Even though I told her clear before she knew my name But in the quiet spaces when the bridges started to burn I figured out exactly what I had to finally learn Separated from the noise, the truth was burning bright I decided who I am inside the middle of the night This is who I am... yeah, I'm standing in the light. [Guitar Solo] [A blazing, gritty country-rock guitar solo over the fast train beat] [Heavy string bends and dusty, aggressive twang] [Chorus] [Maximum energy, full band driving hard to the finish] And I'm jumping back and forth across the white-lined road Virginia to the mountains with a heavy load Trying to find a steady ground to place my weary feet Chasing down my identity on a two-way street! [Outro] [The tempo slows down to a heavy, plodding rhythm] [The pedal steel guitar echoes with a lonesome, lonesome sound] She ended up leaving... Lost that place again... Had to pack my bags, move in with my kin... Crashing with my brother... But I know who I am... Yeah, I know who I am... [One final, sharp acoustic guitar strum hits on the downbeat, fading out completely] [End]
