Brave

Can't put me to sleep Gonna sit here wide awake Feel every cut Every shake I ain't afraid That's what I tell the mirror But my hands still shake Thinking this room might be my last mistake If this goes wrong today Bury my fear Not my name Tell my boy his father stayed Didn't run from the flame I want my son to know I'm no coward Even if I shook in the dark I stared it down I took the pain With his picture pressed to my heart (oh) Won't tell my family Don't want them counting every breath Staring at the clock Tracing edges of my death Surgery could end me That's the line they underlined So I fold it up Tuck it deep inside I've never prayed so hard Words tripping over my tongue Talking to a ceiling Like it's someone I can trust If this goes wrong today Bury my fear Not my name Tell my boy his father stayed Didn't run from the flame I want my son to know I'm no coward Even when my courage felt small I walked that hallway anyway For the one who wears my smile (yeah) If I don't wake Play him this truth I was scared out of my mind But I stood up for you If I come home I'll hold him so tight Tell him brave ain't being fearless It's just choosing to fight If this goes right today I'll still remember the fear Tell my boy his father shakes But keeps on drawing near I want my son to know I'm no coward Even when the night felt long His name was the fire in my veins The reason I stayed strong (oh yeah)