[Verse 1] I take myself outside tonight Like someone worth the air Wrap my arms around my ribs And try to find me there The future waits beyond the dark With all its open space But the stars are quiet candles Holding steady in their place I have been hard to live inside I have been tired of my name I have asked too much of heaven Then blamed myself for shame But something soft is watching now From somewhere overhead Like the sky has kept a blanket For the boy I left for dead [Pre-Chorus] I do not know tomorrow I do not know the way But I am still beside myself At the ending of each day [Chorus] So I’ll love me by starlight Even if my hands still shake Hold myself like something holy Not a problem I must break I’ll love me by starlight Little heart, don’t look away We are scared of what is coming But we’re trying anyway And maybe that is romance Not the flowers, not the flame Just me beneath the heavens Learning tenderness by name [Verse 2] I make a wish without a plan And let it still be true I do not need a perfect man To walk myself through blue There are versions of the morning I am frightened I won’t meet But I leave the curtains open For the gold across the sheets I am letting go of bluebells Of the signs I tried to read All the little hidden symbols I kept asking to choose me Maybe I can stay grounded For a while and still be free Let the sky remain above me Let the earth hold onto me [Pre-Chorus] I do not know tomorrow I do not know the way But I am still beside myself At the ending of each day [Chorus] So I’ll love me by starlight Even if my hands still shake Hold myself like something holy Not a problem I must break I’ll love me by starlight Little heart, don’t look away We are scared of what is coming But we’re trying anyway And maybe that is romance Not the flowers, not the flame Just me beneath the heavens Learning tenderness by name [Bridge] I have spent so many seasons Leaving myself behind Like I could reach a better life By cutting every line But I am done with disappearing From the mirror when I’m low Done with calling myself difficult For needing somewhere slow Come here, my frightened darling Come here, my future ghost You do not have to be certain To be someone I can hold If the road bends out of vision If the stars won’t show the end I will be the hand I reach for I will be my own soft friend [Final Chorus] So I’ll love me by starlight Even if my hands still shake Hold myself like something holy Not a problem I must break I’ll love me by starlight Little heart, don’t look away We are scared of what is coming But we’re trying anyway And maybe that is romance Not the rescue, not the stage Just me beneath the heavens Turning gently toward change [Outro] change [Outro] I let the bluebells stay behind I let the old signs die I do not have to bloom tonight To still be less a lie The future is still dark ahead But the night is not unkind I walk myself home slowly With the stars above me bright
