I knew the rooms by heart Every turn, every twist became my veins Knew which smiles meant “stay useful” Knew where I had to stay in my own lanes I spoke in riddles, stood in thresholds And then I closed a door Funny when they called it together What they meant was “don’t become more” I wasn’t loud I've been wrong But I was present Too long So I stepped out clean No debris, no scene Just a space where what was had been If you’re wondering why it feels thinner now It's because it is I watched their eyes recalibrate When answers came too fast Watched comfort stiffen into posture When strength cracked the mask You don’t fall for breaking hearts You fail by losing your shape By reminding the room, by accident What staying actually takes I didn’t seek something more I forgot myself That’s the part I won’t forgive And I wore that weight Like shackles on my soul "Don't speak, don't feel" But I held the line, for myself inside I thought I had to bear the load alone Even with mouth gagged and thoughts bound So I stepped out clean No burning words, no plea Just a space losing the ghost of me If it rattles when I’m gone That isn’t me That's just entropy There’s a difference Between being necessary And being loved I confused the two That one’s on me Hands still steady Pulse still mine Not weaker Just with a lighter load There's a hole in my heart Where the tumor was ripped out The space feels empty and cold And I'll allow it to be untold No closure No correction Silence Silence
