[Cold Open / Hook — fragile guitar, close vocal] Fuck you for acting surprised When I finally fell apart You spent years holding matches Then blamed me for the dark You don’t get to ask Why I’m hard to love now You taught me how to bleed Then hated when I bled out [Verse 1 — bass enters softly] I used to answer fast I used to sleep through the night I used to think love Wasn’t supposed to feel like a fight Then you made every silence Feel like I was on trial Made me beg for nothing Then called me hostile You made me small enough To fit inside your mood Then acted fucking shocked When I had nothing left to prove [Pre-Chorus — drums creep in] And I hate that I stayed I hate that I tried I hate that I shrank myself down Just to keep you inside [Chorus — distorted guitars explode] You made me like this Then called me too much You broke every soft thing Then missed how it felt to touch I was sweet before you I was easy to love Now I apologize for breathing And call that growing up You made me like this Don’t act confused I didn’t become damaged I got damaged by you [Verse 2 — drop back, bitter vocal] You told them I was bitter You told them I was mean But you left out every night You made a crime scene out of me I wasn’t fucking crazy I was cornered and scared Loving you felt like screaming At someone who wasn’t there Now kindness feels suspicious And peace feels fake as hell I keep waiting for the good thing To turn into someone else [Pre-Chorus 2 — rising] And I hate that I begged I hate what I gave I hate that I called it love When it felt like a cage [Chorus — bigger] You made me like this Then called me too much You broke every soft thing Then missed how it felt to touch I was sweet before you I was easy to love Now I apologize for breathing And call that growing up You made me like this Don’t act confused I didn’t become damaged I got damaged by you [Bridge — half-time, whispered then rising] I hope you hear my name And your stomach drops I hope you almost say sorry Then fucking choke on the thought I hope it hits you at midnight When the room gets cruel That I wasn’t hard to love I was just hard to fool [Breakdown — drums/bass heavy, guitars swelling] You don’t get to call me cold After freezing me out You don’t get to say I changed Like you don’t know why You don’t get to miss me clean You don’t get to miss me kind You don’t get the version of me That you fucking left behind [Final Chorus — huge wall of guitars] You made me like this Then called me too much You broke every soft thing Then missed how it felt to touch I was sweet before you I was easy to love Now I apologize for breathing And call that growing up You made me like this Don’t act confused I didn’t become damaged I got damaged by you Fuck you for the panic Fuck you for the shame Fuck you for making me flinch When somebody says my name [Outro — stripped back] Fuck you for acting surprised When I finally fell apart You spent years holding matches Then blamed me for the dark You made me like this Now live with what you broke.
