Was I Ever Even There?

[Verse 1] I'm not weightless Just a slave to gravity The pull of all the paths that shaped me I drag myself down When I cannot release Why do I hold on I can't pay the price of peace [Pre-Chorus] In holding on or in letting go Either way, it's killing me slow [Chorus] I feel fractured Thousands of pieces of me suspended in air And in the spaces in between Was I ever even there Was I ever even there [Verse 2] In a wall of potions Which poison do I choose Clinging too tight Or running too soon [Pre-Chorus 2] I drink them both And then I choke Can't make a decision So I stay frozen [Chorus] I feel fractured Thousands of pieces of me suspended in air And in the spaces in between Was I ever even there Was I ever even there