seven years later II: more time (alternate)

Lyrics: [Intro, Bare piano, Distant amplifier hum] Seven years later And I still ask for more time More days More laughs More moments that should've been mine Ella I still miss you [Verse 1, Fenix, Fragile close-mic vocal] You deserved more years than the ones that you got More ordinary mornings, more memories I never forgot More stupid conversations stretching late into the night More time beside me when the rest of the world went quiet I wish the person who took you had answered for that day Spent a lifetime behind bars while you got to walk away Sometimes my mind rewrites it till the ending comes out right You're still here, justice gets done, and I wake up to morning light [Pre-Chorus, Dissonant guitar building] But then I wake And the room hasn't changed Seven years later I'm still saying your name [Chorus, Huge downtuned guitars, Cracked vocal] Ella, you should've had more time More of your life and more of mine I wish you were still here beside me Instead of living in my memory I miss you more than I know how to say I still remember you every fucking day Seven years later, you're still part of me And you always will be [Post-Chorus, Distant gang vocals] More time More time God, I wish we'd had more time [Verse 2, Dirty bass, Sparse live drums] Some nights the nightmare finds its way back into my head Not every detail, just the fear and knowing how it ends Then my mind runs different endings over and over again One where you're safe, one where justice wins One where nobody takes the future you deserved One where the worst day never happens in our world I know imagining can't rearrange history But sometimes that's where grief takes me when I fall asleep [Pre-Chorus, Fenix, Trembling vocal] Wake up Sit up Tell myself I'm here It's memory and grief Not the present disappearing [Chorus, Explosive guitars, Double vocal] Ella, you should've had more time More of your life and more of mine I wish you were still here beside me Instead of living in my memory I miss you more than I know how to say I still remember you every fucking day Seven years later, you're still part of me And you always will be [Break, Half-time drums, Crushing guitars] MORE TIME THAT'S ALL I EVER WANTED MORE TIME ANOTHER YEAR WE NEVER GOT JUSTICE A LIFE BEHIND BARS YOU SAFE STILL HERE THAT'S HOW MY MIND REWRITES THE DARK [Verse 3, Clean guitar, Bare piano] Before I ever started searching for somebody new Before the later heartbreaks, there was me and there was you You were the best thing that had happened to me then My first real love, my first idea of what forever meant Looking for love again never erased your place Nobody new was ever meant to overwrite your name Life kept moving even when I hated that it could But remembering you doesn't mean forgetting how to live for good [Bridge, Bare piano, Sorrowful strings, Fenix, Cracked vocal] Sometimes I wish I could stay beside your grave all night Keep you company beneath the stars until the morning light But I know the place I visit isn't where our whole story stays You're in the jokes I still remember, in a thousand ordinary days So I'll bring flowers I'll sit awhile I'll tell you what's happened I'll remember your smile And when night comes down I'll say goodnight and go home Because carrying you with me means I never leave your memory alone [Build, Drums rising, Layered vocals] Ella I remember you Ella I still miss you More time More time I'd give anything for more time [Final Chorus, Massive guitars, Fenix, Raw soaring vocal] ELLA, YOU SHOULD'VE HAD MORE TIME More of your life and more of mine I wish you were still here beside me But you'll always live inside my memory I miss you more than I know how to say And I'll remember you through every coming day Seven years later, you're still part of me And you always will be [Final Breakdown, Gang vocals, Feedback] FIRST LOVE STILL REMEMBERED SEVEN YEARS STILL REMEMBERED EVERY LAUGH STILL REMEMBERED ELLA YOU'LL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED [Outro, Solo piano, Fenix, Exhausted natural vocal] I wish you got more time Especially with me I wish justice had been the only ending And you had gotten to keep living yours I still miss you I still remember you I'll visit again I'll bring flowers I'll sit and talk for a while Then I'll go home when it gets late And carry you with me Like I always have Goodnight, Ella [End]