You stay close when my life gets messy Talk so low like you don't want them to hear One hand locked on my waist Then you go cold when I say “the old days” A part of me wants your attention A part of me keeps pushing back We got long nights and bad tension Half-made love and vague intentions You say “come here” Then you pull away One minute we're in Next minute you change And I hate how your distance runs me How you pull me apart so slowly Got me analyzin' every small reaction Turnin' tiny moments into overreactions Maybe we're scared of attachment Maybe we both know what happens You give me something That keeps my head malfunctioning One touch and my guard starts giving in Now I'm stuck in these same old thoughts again And again, and again You take me somewhere Where nothing ever feels quite right One word and we're back to picking fights Still I want you by my side tonight This might mean nothing Still I keep coming back to it Our goodbye feels unfinished Like neither one of us can quit Just tell me the truth Don't dress it up as something new I'm tired of your apologies And everything they bring out in me Mood swings with no warning Deep talks go cold by morning One minute close, next minute guarded Every time we fix it, one of us plays the martyr Sharp words mixed with wanting False starts, slow responses Too close to leave clean Too rough to call it right Maybe we're both scared That somebody could really stay You give me something Now every quiet feels thunderous Man, your absence sits right in front of us This could be heartbreak Or the closest thing I've had to trust Maybe we're both too much I'm tired of chasing you I'm tired of what I do I'm tired of both of us I'm tired of both of us tired of both of us But I'm not tired of you
