[spoken intro] my brother is dead, i know this now but how does it make me feel? let me tell you my head space in my own words, listen... [verse 1] dark room, lights off, im sitting here brain twisted don't wanna move, don't wanna talk, don't feel like my life was gifted why do i have to go through this shit? why do others never live in this pit? pit in my heart, it won't go away, give it time, that's what others say time is wrong—it won't heal, i now live a life where i can't feel what direction to turn, jump up or down my body's so broken, it feels like i'm already underground how did this happen? my brother's gone a second can change you—and life is long [chorus] im falling through silence, nothing feels real this wound in my chest is a scar i can’t heal the nights last forever, the days drag me down but i’m still here breathing while you’re underground [verse 2] doesn't matter if it's day or night, i sit in the dark and sit in the light i stare at the walls, it’s a blank stare like my brain knows nothing, it needs repair how to adapt, how to adjust, this pain is different, it eats at your guts constant pressure and this weight feels real, my heart feels shattered, and i was made of steel i dunno how to do normal life, feels like my brain's spinning day and night now i can't sleep, what does one do? grab some whiskey and drink, yeah that's true but this type of pain can't be touched no amount of liquor can mend this rust my body's so tired of dealing with pain and now i'm dealing with losing my only gain my closest friend, my brother, my heart your body goes numb, i’m a target on the wall and god's throwing a dart [bridge – spoken word] every moment feels like i'm cards being shuffled—what does that lead to? my body is being ruffled. i feel like my body is broken, i'm thirsty, hungry can't move, can't think, can't see straight or clear, no direction—broken compass i want to adapt like i have in the previous pains but losing someone this close is different—it’s a pain your enemies don’t deserve it's devil-defined, pure discomfort, and misdirection overstimulated to the max, stress is enough to wanna lay on train tracks body feels cold like i'm blue-blooded warrant out for me, i'm being hunted hunted by hell, hunted by pain, hunting me slowly god forbid i'm allowed to dwell [chorus] im falling through silence, nothing feels real this wound in my chest is a scar i can’t heal the nights last forever, the days drag me down but i’m still here breathing while you’re underground [verse 3] no one deserves to feel this way i tried to sit on my knees and pray but nothing is answered, i hear nothing back the only way through is to visit hell and then come back back to your life with a new pit that never goes away no remorse, no water breaks, just living life with constant ache yes, scrambled, lost, and broken is how i feel time doesn’t heal a damn thing, you must remain tough for the loved one you lost and if toughness means scars, i’ll wear them loud if grief means silence, i’ll scream through the crowd cause pain is the chain that drags me each day but love is the reason i fight through the gray [final chorus] im falling through silence, nothing feels real this wound in my chest is a scar i can’t heal the nights last forever, the days drag me down but i’m still here breathing while you’re underground [outro – spoken] my brother is gone, and the pit won’t fade but his name is the light in the mess i made so i’ll carry his memory through shadow and flame broken and bleeding—but i’ll speak his name
