Gone, Among Other Things (human-written lyrics)

well I am scared to death of life and I am scared to death of death and I miss everyone whose here and I guess everyone who left and I am sitting on the ground I am staring into fog I'm on the leash you're on the leash lets walk the dog I am contradicting myself it Is inherently bad for my health I am busy negotiating terms But I won't come to the table I fear I am not able I am the apple and I am the worm I'm inside myself lantern shutter I tried this once I don't want another and I am gone among other things that cell phone rings nothing answers well I am scared to death of life and I am scared to death of death and I miss everyone whose here and I guess everyone who left and I am sitting on the ground I am staring into fog I'm on the leash you're on the leash lets walk the dog