[Intro] (rough, whiskey-worn) [Verse 1] She's at home making meatloaf, thinks I'm working late I'm parked behind some dive bar, wrestling with my fate Got her lipstick on my collar from a kiss I didn't want While I'm thinking 'bout the bartender and the way his blue jeans flaunt [Verse 2] Married her right out of high school, seemed like what you do Small town son doing right by daddy's point of view But every time we fuck I close my eyes and drift away To somewhere I can't talk about in the goddamn light of day [Chorus] I'm living a lie Wearing a ring that don't fit right She's planning our forever While I'm dying every night Can't be the man she thinks I am Can't tell her why Just choking on this lie I'm living Till the day I die [Verse 3] There's a truck stop off the interstate, thirty miles from here Where guys like me can disappear and drown in truck stop beer But guilt tastes worse than whiskey when you stumble through the door To a woman who still loves the man you ain't been anymore [Verse 4] (spoken, bitter) Preacher says it's sinful, daddy'd probably shoot me dead Mama'd cry herself to nothing, town would want my head So I keep playing husband, keep on lying through my teeth While the real me rots away beneath this fake-ass family wreath [Chorus] I'm living a lie Wearing a ring that don't fit right She's planning our forever While I'm dying every night Can't be the man she thinks I am Can't tell her why Just choking on this lie I'm living Till the day I die [Bridge] (raw, desperate) Some days I think about just leaving Take the truck and never look back But coward's all I've ever been And courage is the one damn thing I lack So I'll keep dying slow instead Keep pretending I'm alright Keep crawling into bed with her And hating myself every night [Verse 5] Got beer cans in the floorboard and shame deep in my bones Playing straight man's just another job when you can't come home She wants to try for babies, says it's time we settle down While I'm white-knuckling this steering wheel, drowning in this town [Chorus] I'm living a lie Wearing a ring that don't fit right She's planning our forever While I'm dying every night Can't be the man she thinks I am Can't tell her why Just choking on this lie I'm living Till the day I die [Outro] (rough, hollow) Yeah, I'm choking on this lie I'm living Till the day I die
